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2010-05-19T14:39:00.003+08:00

Im HERE (click me) ♥

what does your sleep position?

2010-05-02T15:29:00.003+08:00

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A Research about the six most common sleeping positions that indicative of personality types.

Fetus position - A whopping 41% of participants sleep in this curled-up manner. Women are twice as likely to rest like this and it is listed as the most common position. These sleepers are said to have a tough exterior but are still sensitive and may appear to be shy but warm up quickly.

Log position - If you sleep on your side with both arms down, you are a social, easy-going person who is trusting, sometimes to the point of being gullible. The study showed 15% of people sleep like a log.

Yearner position - A close third is the side-lying position with both arms out in front of the body, with 13% of partipants sleeping like this. Yearners are noted to be open-minded and still cynical, suspicious, and stubborn about sticking to decisions once they are made.

Soldier position - These sleepers lie on their backs with arms down and kept close to the body. This 8% study is said to be reserved, quiet, without fuss, and hold themselves and others to a high standard. Soldier sleepers have a higher likelihood for snoring due to the flat-back position, which may not cause them to wake up often but may result in a less restful night's sleep.

Freefall position - Those people who lie on their bellies with arms under or wrapped around a pillow with head turned to the side, make up 7% of the population studied. Freefallers are brash, outgoing, and are very uncomfortable with criticism.

Starfish position - Sleepers who lie on their backs with arms up near their head or the pillow account for 5% of participants. These people are good listeners, helpful, and are uncomfortable being the center of attention. People who sleep in starfish position are more likely to snore and to suffer from a poor night's sleep more often

mine is freefaller and foetus position.

whats yours?

for further reading, go here

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i'm shocked 404

2010-04-29T13:31:00.011+08:00

im shocked. not terkejut-kinda-shock. but medical-kinda-shock.

OH MY SHAHNAZ!

WHAT IS THAT SHOCK CRAB LAH?

Shock is a life-threatening condition (but cant apply that on me) that occurs when the body is not getting enough blood flow. This can damage multiple organs (again, cant apply that on me). Shock requires immediate medical treatment and can get worse very rapidly. there is several type of shock. and in my case, mine is the hypovolemic shock. it is an emergency condition in which severe blood and fluid loss makes the heart unable to pump enough blood to the body.

Shock's symptoms :

its happened two days ago. when i wke up (from my bed and that time im in the middle of yahoo messenger-ing with farrirruddin rastam *sumpah susah nak type nama kau niela faghee. aku kena check berapa R and aku kena recheck dkt FB. grr~*) to perform subuh prayer and on my way to the toilet, suddenly, my vision goes blurry and my head felt so light i want to snap.

and yeah, i snapped!

(no, dont worry i didnt bang my head to any hard surface)

At the same time, my skin becomes cold and sweaty and clammy. My pulse becomes weak and rapid. My abdominal tingling. And i begins to breath very quickly a.k.a hyperventilating.

oh god. oh shut. whats happening? i panicked, to be honest. am i going to curl up and die and rotten alone in this room and people will only discover my corpse a few weeks later?? no.no. dont die just yet shahnaz!

so, with my very best, i crawl (not crawling like those babies crawling lah. more to like dragging my lower body mcm orang stroke yang lumpuh separuh badan tu) towards my kulkas aka refrigerator try to drink something sweet that can boost my glucose to produce some energy. but no i cnt do that easily. why? yes. because im all shaking and i cant even hold the glass properly. i sighed and tried several times till i manage to sipped few of the teh-o-ais.

i lay in bed trying to block out negativity thoughts . i tried to call someone for help but im all weak. i managed to ym my conditions (with damn hell lotsa typo) to faghee and its end with

"hey you! promised me you wont die just yet please" - faghee

i was half asleep, i didnt know what he was talking about. apalah kau nie faghee! ade ke i mati. i belum jadi pengacara nona lagi oren. he he he.

and today, i am BAZINGA!

yeay yeay.

all fine all good minus the minor headache.

and oh. theres something i would love to share with you all.

what is shahnaz beawesome in farrirrudin's eyes :)

shahnaz is awesome, because if i was asked if is there any girl yg kenal herself too well and love herself so much, i would say it's you. ko mana la pernah komplen gemok la, apa la, kan. Then, kau punya love spreading through the world to memang best lah. then taste music kau memang sangat feminine, tu yg aku suka -faghee

this is me with my bedazzle berry. thankyou afiku ^_^ (emoticon hugs)

xxx.

hello YOU ♥♥♥

2010-04-18T13:56:00.012+08:00

♥♥♥♥

blog blog blog!

i miss my blog.

new blog's name.

wonderwall mo lovey fo me :)

meowmeow.

so anyways,

how are you all my dearies?

i am splendid. i am happy. indeed ^_^

updates updates.

currently, im on formsprings aedi.

(baru na ber-formsprings while othas did that ages ago (-___-")!)

so askme askme askme!

now. like so now.

hehe

new pink longchamp. all in one place.

no mo hassle bassle gassle carik2 gadgets in the big bag.

yeay!

oh my. ohmy.

this frozen yoghurt is so my forever favourite.

♥-ing the blueberry twist with my-must-topping ; almondss.

yummy. now. feedme. feedme.

^__^

afi's and my new berry's condom.

eh no no.

we tetap ♥-ing the ultimate awesome CHELSEA

its just the red devil's condom look rawr

and- later when i got one angel's condom,

will paste it here too ya.

what colour good for angel?

PINK PINK PINK yes? ^_^

hiihii

pspGo baby on the go.

04042010

*eh, really? no. no actually i cant rmmbr when exact date i gt ths baby*

♥-ing patapon's game.

pata pata pon pon.

hehe. cumeyl gila.

new hair cut.

aww, crying a river when they cut my looooong hair.

very long okay. waist-length-long.

dah pesan dah cut only inches away from the tips!

but that crazy stylist mcm envy with my hair,

and cut mo n mo inches frm the tips.

WOOT! how dare you si mekap-tebal-dan-sibulu-mata-palsu!!

;(

"adik, ur tips banyak rusak. gotta let it go"

urgh. fine. hate you still

(-___-")!

but hey. ♥-ing the current hair.

next hair style. boy cut.

afi mesti ta bagi permission.

heee~ heee~

and-

taadaa. no surprise.

mo pics from iphoto booth.

*obviously not from my mac*

which make me sgt mahu a mac.

ipad pun bolehlah.

afiku, nak ipad pls. pretty pls :")

ehehe.

me. azizan. azman

we ♥ ibooth.

ps : i hacked my itouch. ON MY OWN! hahaha. mmg beawesome. inano jd kurang awesome wen itouch da hacked. opps. ^_^

BLOG alert!

2010-03-14T17:52:00.003+08:00

dear blog, im hurt to look at you with same old post.

trust me. ive tried my best to dumb ubertwitter and facebook on berry.

but its damn hard man.

and when i do wana post a thing fo u;

im blank. T_T

recent me;

1. doing the same old routine evry day ^_^

2. loving my mr. wonderful frm my own dirty lil secret's world.

3. afi on berry. woot! lagi la ta update blog kan. ehe ^_^

and ah yes.

i stumble upon ths thng on tumblr.

gotta check it out guys.

good points indeed.

^_^

# 34. ini hanyalah post "warm-up" (-__-")!!

oh hey people!!

2010-01-31T05:26:00.003+08:00

since i got myself a blackberry, im being a crackwhore crackberry!

ehehehe.

so this blog wont be updated enough.

but hey.

a true crackberry like me owes (24/7) on my twitter and tumblr !!

follow me there aite?! :)

what. scar on my face?? NO!!

2009-11-07T00:42:00.017+08:00

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at last, I finally get the time to blog about thngs happened to me

(of course). ehe.

my skin. my face to be specific. been attacked by i-dunoe-what-its-name.
CHARLIE ke? wut evalah. it/he/she spread it/he/she venom at my face.

@my chest, left cheek. both eyes n eyebrows.

my skin turn to red. really RED. burn sensation. too sensitive too touch.

then skin not being friendly nymo. skin turn to be kasar n menebal

and shows slight infection signs. oh. dem it!

(mesti dr. Sumantri *my skin's doctor* ta hepy dgn perubahan yg telah terjadi)

(patu mesti akan bebel, what r u doing, whr ev u been.

y ths thng cn appen to u, KID)

okay. word kid perlu ditekankan dkt situ. sbb die pernah pngl saya KID sekali.

once or twice ea? hanya karena sy lupe. code cream muke sy.

dan malas pakai night cream. yes. dr. Sumantri's cream ade code.

bukan harry's code dalam drama series dexter yg agak siket hot tu :))

but code number. 304d ke. 11. 5. yg macam tu.

so, petang or to be exact afta maghrib,

sy n jah hunt specialist kulit termantap makassar.

but in return, NONE.

semua yg hebat2 dah pg jakarta. ade convention katanya.

sha : jah. ape na buat ni jah. i cnt live wif this skin. afta ths reddish colour gone.that black scar pasti akan muncul. qta harus bertindak awal!!! (-___-")!!

jah : okay. macam nie. kite naek je angkot nie. tgk sepanjang jalan. ade ta specialist kulit. janjie cepat bertindak.

sha : haa? randomly ke?? berkesan ke? doc tu bagus ke? hurmph!

jah : haahla. nanti muka kau ade scar. nak keeeeeeeeeee?? ;)

sha : what. scar on my face?? NO!!

cis. demi untuk bertindak awal. and-

afta hopping to beberapa

clinic-yang-tapi-specialist-nya-lagi-pergi-jakarta's convention.

akhirnya. ketemu jua. satu clinic. tp kena tunggu. tunggu 5jam.

tunggu tunggu dan tetap tunggu. akhirnya dpt ubat da. which is so pricey ;(

seriesly. P R I C E Y!

hampir semua perubatan yg sy dptkan di MAKASSAR ini.

hell PRICEY!

e.g; last month, pergi tampal gg, it costs me RM190.

JAW DROP kan. tampal gg. bukan tampal diamond pink or ganti gg emas pun.

tampal gg jeeeeeee. yang warna gg jgak. mama tgk pun die takan lihat.

lalu ta kan percayakan sy. betulke i tampal gg.

okay. takpela. RELA bayar dr scar bermastautin tetap di muka.

and selagi ta hilang scar ni, no way na pergi meet dr. Sumantri.

cancel evry 2 weeks appointment wif him. kerana SCARRRRRR ini

hurmph! (-___-")!!~

hari ke-2. gambar ini gambar yang menunjukkan kulit masih mahu be my fren.

hari ini. iaitu hari ke yang berapa tah after jumpe doctor.

masih ada scar di chest area. di muka sudah ada perubahan drastis.

cream dr. Sumantri very the miracle :))

bkan miracle water SKII yg fames tu. ehehe.

catatan kaki :

i will be in surgery department starting tomorrow til february next year.

yeah. i know lama sungguh.

first 3 weeks we will b quarantine dlm ER (emergency room)

ta bole go anywhere except toilet dkt tepi tu dan solat 5x/hari

and tido hanya bole 3jam/day.

WHATTTTTTTT?

TIGA JAM JEEEEE.

oh come on! for 2 week berturut-turut? hurm.

masa ni la cream2 dr. Sumantri akan memastikan

tiada zits atau acne tp hanya puffy eyes di muka ini.

hahaha :))))

and-

dala kena done stitches n do otha lotsa thng vry fast. like VERY THE FAST!

or else kau-makan-dgr-muntah-makian aku ni (dari doctor)

*tp agak di exxagaratekan, no?*

ehehe.

ala, i cnt wait fo surgery dept to be end lah.

~~sedangkan belum start pun lg eh~~

hee :D
oh btw, do pray for me, jah n sarah.
that evrythng dipermudahkan dan tetapkan semangat kami :)

AMEN!!!

oren oren.

some vainshots dengan baju surgery.

saya ade tailor yg awesome that make the surgery baju look

SO damn good n pretty hot on me!

yummyumm~

eehee :))

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My October

2009-10-27T03:29:00.005+08:00

Graduation Day!

It fills the heart with mixed feelings,

fulfillment and sadness, anxiety and eagerness.

Say goodbye to the comfortable and secure life within school walls.

Get ready to march to the beat of the business world.

'Look out for the sharks,' warns one professor.

'Learn to identify opportunity,' says another.

Your calling isn't something that somebody can tell you about.

It's what you feel.It's a part of your life force.

It is the thing that gives you juice.

The thing that you are supposed to do.

And nobody can tell you what that is.

You know it inside yourself.

HAPPY GRADUATING to my AFI ♥ and friends :))

im in EnT exam's week.

sleppless nite.

zombie days. adrenaline shot. (-___-")~~

this is afi's awesome SAW :)

welcome to d club, vitch :))

2009-10-03T01:11:00.015+08:00

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dah one week kembali ke "pulau" bak kata annes.
nama annes ejaannya mmg hot.
ditambah lg wen gabung dgn nama ayah die.
annes aj
yes. mmg hot habes.
ehe

oren oren.
back to the me story.
last week being wif afi is so much fun!
he is my true giggles :)))
ta sangka afi is cool.
series. series.
mmg cool :)
i love u vitch!

so, instead of afi.
this stuff do make me happy two tree fo fai :))

1. BAMBIE. *pronounce it as bembiey oren*
its my new bink vaoi.
yeay yeay.
nasib baek ta beli pocket. boooo pocket sony boooo!!
ehe

afi tgh bonding session wif bambie

2. papa P. ayah panggil ie lembu. (-_____-!)
nama tu langsung ta glamer n so common.
but hey- ayah saya is DADDY COOL.
ta pecaya tanya afiku love.
hee~
afi gave me papa p d nite i touched ground kuala lumpur :)))
ilusfdm afi.
lepas nie i bole expand zoo beany bears i.
hihi.

3. LILY. its a minnie mouse. n its bink!!!
yeay! mp3 4gb :))))
afi bought it for me cuz i wunt bring podot to bedah dept next month.
too big. i wan smaller mp3 player.
thank you boyfiee!!
i love u. wamh :*

4. FLAKE. actually buy ltk dkt kelly.
*kelly tu nama car afi. ehe*
carik babi bink takde. :"(
i told mama ayah bout my flake n ayah said to afi dat if he were afi,
*uncle da lama campak keluar benda tu. tp sbb cintakan. mmg semua rela*
(-____-")!!!!
wen we jalan2 at d mall, afi jumpe spidey hitam.
same species wif flake. afi na yg tu.
smaller n less feminine. T.T
yekeeee nie. ke sebab ayah ckp mcm tu.
grrrr~
slap syg b la canie.
ehe.

5. NUNA NEE. my new phone.
its white. sleek n seksi :))
its nokia E71.

this is paris, tgh menggayakan OUR hotness bedazzled phone.

this is me, with my bedazzled nuna nee.
its a cristal fully casing phone.
not available in malaysia yet.
!@#$%^*O^%
nasib baek study dkt indonesia.
and-
thats hot :))

but- on top of all that,
there is one thing.
afi gave whch mk me grin all day wearing it.
its our promise R :)
one on me. one on u.
i love u.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNES LOVE!!! :))))

2009-09-25T09:39:00.005+08:00

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im replying farree "false love" song.

not playing using my oreo.

sbb oreo di indonesian while im home.

tht time, sgt rasa na record.

since i cal annes na wish bday die t angkat2 pun (-___-")

n na gv her sumthng to remmbr,

so play it wif my kapok guitar :)

and actually, its my first guitar frm kalong love :)

AMARAN KERAS

vid ni bit momot sbb first shot trus upload.

~~pemalas betul T.T~~

so wutelse shud i say.

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY ANNES.

i LOVE u, vitch!!

BFF BFF BFF.

~~kutuk aku dkt wall fb dgn faghee plak. urgh T.T~~

qta enjoy dlu!! :)))

hee!

ps : i got lotsa thngs to update bout my hols. oh yes! :))

~~hope ta malas na update those. heehehehehe~~

its damn good to be home :)

2009-09-17T09:46:00.014+08:00

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exam forensik semalam was extra SUPERB to d max!!

ALHAMDULLILLAH :)

touchd ground round 1130 pm.

my heart dag dig dug na walk to the arrival gate as i so nervous to mit afi.

it has been 7 months kot not having him bsde me T.T!

yes. mmg lama gila kan.

n it is aneh to my frens n me myslf hw i cn survive this LDR.

bak kata smn, till the moon gtu. :))

*pat myself. shahnaz ni mmg membanggakan betul. ehe*

malam tadi. lcct.
afi wait me wif my name card at the arrival gate :")

~~sbb if tade namecard i, i naek cab balek umah. ehe~~

wif his fav yellow shirt. holding 'SHAHNAZ'

dari jauh, saw him :)

i felt mcm na je lari n jumphug him but instead.

i salam2 sume fam my fren br be wif afi :)

he hand me mineral water my gufy tedy n took over my bags.

masuk kete ade one small bouquet flower on my seat.

whch smell so lovely lace :)

n wen he settle masukkan bags he hand ferrero's n cad's chocs :D

and he hand me new family members.

papa pervert :D

die lembu yg mataa die high sgt2.

ehe.

he drv wif one hand while the other hold mine.

n we hava very good talk along way home.

:)))))))))

mlm tu i wana mam KFC.

craving la smash potato n cheesy wedges tu.

sebab-

indonesia takde benda2 tu at their KFC.

yg ade is nasi putih mkn dgn ayam. ~.~

hurpmh! T.T

while afi n apai q at the counter,

i gosip2 dgn kaklong.

lotsa thng to update e.otha.

tgh borak2 sms masuk.

baby, i miss u. i love u. -afi

ehe. inches away je kot.

eeee.

asal momok ni cumel sgt nieeeeeee.

grrrr~~ ehe.

patu p dkt afi n gigit afi nakai nieeeee~

afi ni momok yg kena squeeze je al d time.

sbb baby love afiku momok yg satu ni :))

ps : thank you afiku love. baby love u. so much. wamh :)

mata papa pervert yg tgh high. ehe :")

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yeay yeay. balik kampung :))

2009-09-15T20:01:00.011+08:00

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SELAMAT HARI RAYA :)

maaf zahir batin. halal makan minum.

*okay. tu kira da bagi kad raya, oren* :)

walaupun i know raya masih less dr seminggu.
tapi i akan busy pada lebaran ini dgn fam, afi, frens n lotsa thng.

~~shahnaz perasan hot stuff. hurpmh! T.T~~

so selamat hari raya in advance!!

heee~

esok flight back home to MALAYSIA ku terchenta :)

hip hip yeah yeah hooray! :D
BUT-
sebelum tu.
~~cis. spoil betul ah benda nieeee T.T~~

esok pagi ade exam.

forensik. T.T

i dpt case luka tembak.

so kena belajar anatomi senjata api.

rifled la shot gun la.

anatomi peluru la.

kelainan pada mayat la.

patu dr mayat kite dpt tau kn tmbk frm hw far la ape la :~

patu mcm2 lg la.

*pokok nya semua lah pasal tembak2 nie*

haa. mcm ni esok i grad, boleh jd CSI.

hot kan~ :")

mesti marveles habes.

since na raya.

mesti WAJIB ade baju raya yg diva :))

saya n d BFF pun!

qtarung p tempah dkt our tailor yg garang.

kenapa WE ckp aunty tu garang??

siap bold and large kan font untuk emphasise that she is one.

one : she said me stupid cuz i hate my curent kebaya raya tu.

*sila rujuk foto dbawah ini sebentar lagi*

two : die pernah kate baju yg annes choose hodoh T.T

three : my fren pernahnangis sbb stress dgn die. tp i dunoe y la.

tapi since mulut aunty tu dah ade insurance,

so we just shut up n smile :))

~~cuz we love u aunty!!~~

annes,

jgn sumpah aunty tailor qta tu.

ramadhan nie!

hehe.

tp pape pun.

aunty tu mmg mantap jahit kebaya i dr first year lg stdy dkt sinie :)

shantek2 sume :)

sbb tu we all tetap anta kebaya dkt die walaupun die tu mmg mcm tu.

bak kata orang, jahat mulut tp hati baek :)

part plg i syg aunty ni adalah : she remmber my name!

suka ask my frens bout me.

"sanas mana sanas? tidak tempah kebaya ini tahun?"

*mesti i dpt discount next tempahan kebaya

if aunty tau i puji2 ie mcm nie dkt belog i*
hehe.

and oh, yg marveles nye,

if tempah kebaya yg da ade model kena rm30je one set.

if kaen meteran wif no model, she charged me rm45-rm50 la.

SILA JAW DROPP KAWAN2 :))

oren.

i nak mandie shampoo rambut wangie2.

patu na solat isyak n smbg tarawih den na study ballistic test plak :)

pls pray for my exam semua dipermudahkan esok yaa.

amen.

cekidaud.

me n my annes *the BFF* pics :)

zass~

anis dgn baju raya yg drooling :"P

yumm yumm~

pose baju raya baru i yg aunty cakap marveles.

i said hurmph! T.T

cambitch partner plg keren!

i LOVE u vitch :))

ni cover magazine seventeen for the next month edition :)

i LOVE her. so much :)

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selamat pagi indonesia :)

2009-09-05T07:44:00.006+08:00

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good morning good morning :)

azam harini datang keje dkt dorensik department

ialah untuk sync n make sure ALL.

i mean it. SEMUA.

album art in my itouch tu terUPDATE.

cis cis~
~~bukan nak belaja sbb lg dua minggu nak exam T.T~~

yelah. asek slide2 dgn album cover warna kelabu.

na belagak dpn org pun jadi tak cool (^_^)
hehe.

then when dah update itouch tu.

kenala sync sume lagu2 yg plg best

dan juge pics2 i yg terhangat di pasaran.

zasss~

memandangkan boyfie baru je lepas fotoshoot family ie.
dan saya juge.

tapi dgn kawan2 forensik.

kena pakai baju labuh. T.T

dgn alasan sbb ramadhan.

okay, takpe. redha sahaja :)

oh oh.

pagi tadi sbb na dapatkan jugak pahala sahur.

mangon tp sgt sgt nanto :"(

dgn mata buka 1/4 je.

pegang gelas na minum n entah mcm mana.

jatuh gelas n jatuh.

opps. hurm.

bukak lampu dapor tgk kaca bersepah2 ke merata tempat.

go to my bed n sambung tito.

later mangon na mandie br cleankan all of it.

haihs. starting day dgn cleaning :"(

hurmph~

ok ok.

nw na bg teaser for my medikolegal team's photoshoot.

tapi ni yg belum dieditlah.

ps : i love my forensik team as we have so much thngs to laff on.

pokoknya, all of us satu kepala pagel.

mantap habis~

omg omg.

in LOVE dgn dermot mulroney!!

FOREVER!

girls, sila lah nonton the wedding date.

he is so dem charming :)

dgn gaya manly die,

dgn senyuman charm die,

dgn hot body~ grrr~ :")
and and he got good authentics in that movie.

i terpaksa betray chucky bassy sbb dermot terlalu kacak.

ehe :")

oren. here the teaser!

para dokter forensik yg best gile :D

cekidaud~

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what. i. learn. today.

2009-08-27T00:58:00.015+08:00

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my afi said. only me that matter. now.

no mater wut.

he love me w.a.h.h.

faghee said. relationship ni mcm battle area.
we must fight for it. tetap stand for it. and want it.

fahan said. when my heart at my thinnest trust.

give it a lil bit mo try. dun tink too muc. n trust him still.

aizat said. isthikharah.

and percaya that there wil b d one.

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afi,

tun8 b asek cry je afta solat isyak td :"(
b felt sad so deep.
b jadi rindu. baby rindu syg b.
da lama baby tade syg dgn b.
b tgk syg dkt webby b je evryn8.
b na syg sebela baby nw sama2 b :(

syg,

baby salu selfish kan.
sian syg. b da tahu pun b mcm nie jgak saloo..
if b sad uncomfy n mad sume b trus je sms syg ckp sume.
ta pk pun syg tired ke, tgh keje ke, syg tito ke.
patu b saloo pk too much n feel mcm2 sume2.
i noe, sumhow, its hurt n mk u sad.
afiku,

baby sury..
i am sorry.

afi b love,

kan dah >3 days b headache.

b asek cry kat syg je sbb sakit.

syg layan je b sume2.

syg make sure b mam. evrytime sms
suh mam. amek ubat. mit doc.
patu suh b baring if we webby.
syg webby tunggu mk sure til baby tito.
patu syg ta off webby evryn8 sbb
syg tau b hepy sgt if tejaga tgh malam,
nampa syg tito dkt weby tu.
baby rasa syg dekat je.
tp tak. syg jauh.
jauh sgt smpi b rasa sad.

semalam syg bg b walpaper galfie shantek.
baby sukeeee sbb ie ade star. syg tau b suke star.
syg pakai boyfie walpaper b.
pg td bukak lappy, b senyum je lg tgk walpaper tu.

thak you syg.
u just made my day tdy even i start it wif nitemare dream tu.
hurm. b ta suke la syg mimpi tu.
b sad n uncmfy sgt2 mimpi tu :(

sayangku afi,
please be at your strongest when baby at my weakest.

and
pls b patient wif baby too ok?

afiku love,
cnt wait to long my hand n hug u tite.
so tite b tamo let it go.
n wen i get u.
i wana hug u til my hand tired to do so.
i mis u. so much :"(

ilusfdm

PS: since upload nu template.

all the cute widgets sume dah hilang. :"(
hurm. wil update this up asap.
xxx

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hurmph T.T

2009-08-14T21:34:00.003+08:00

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tana update belogggg ni smpi berjaya tukaq template belog ini dlu.
cis cis.
lama gile kot tanam azam na tukaq.
tp ta tukaq2.
sbb malas nyeee ;(
internet ni laaaaa~
hurm no.1

haish.
puasa dkt indonesia la lagi :"(
balik malaysia malam raya.
takbir dlm flight.
exam forensic a day bfo takbir.
hurm no.2

bgn subuh tp kenapa mcm my fan off n my room gelap gelita??
electric cut off kee?
jerit2 pngl pak jaga suh betulkan suis ke ape tah dkt bawah tu ;(
i start my fri-awesome-day like dat?
hurm no.3

onn the lappy but y so slow?
teet teet *bunyi amaran lappy*
AVG said. wei shahnaz, laptop kau ade trojan.
haaa??
hurm no.4

balik from forensic,
tgk my room still takde electrc.
complaint2 n paj jaga cnt reach the local TNB sbb monday is their hari kemerdekaan.
so public hols esok til monday.
WHATTTTTTTTT? takan til monday kot na stranded at my fren's room???
hurm no.5

sms sms.
patu sms jeee.
sbb na sms :"(
patu..
sumwhere sumwthng goes wrong.
sumthng make me sad.
really sad this time.
sad nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :"(
hurm.
aaaaa~
na HUGlah. hurmmm T.T
i felt mcm tdk di appreciate.
left out n unloved .
*ok. ni sindrom middle child approved by padel*
BIG hurm no.6

but hey.
i way awesome than this.
at least that is wut ive been told by some people who stil care.
i may jus find dat wut seem difficult has just been made right :")
amen.

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H1N1 - the public enemies

2009-08-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

To the public,

Calm down. Don’t worry too much. Yes H1N1 is everywhere. If you are healthy there is nothing to worry. H1N1 is a virus that cause ‘flu’ like symptoms (ie: cough, runny nose, muscle ache, fever or in some cases diarrhoea, vomiting or abdominal cramps). Generally people would get 2 or 3 episode of flu a year. Usually in “normal” viral flu/cold , paracetamol a.k.a panadol, bed rest and drinking a lot of water is enough. In most viral infections, the symptoms last for about 5-7 days. No antibiotic is needed (antibiotic is for bacterial infection only).

So what make H1N1 different? nothing much really. It’s a new strain of virus. It gives same symptoms as in ‘normal’ flu infection. In healthy human being, it lasts for 5-7 days. Your own body a.k.a immune system will fight the viral itself. So, if you are a healthy adult with no other medical disease, just treat it as a flu. Nothing to worry. Take paracetamol/ panadol, bed rest, drinks a lot of water. H1N1 only gives BIG problems to those who are immunocompromised a.k.a mereka2 yg x sihat dan kurang daya tahan or antibodi. For example old people, people with chronic diseases (sakit jantung, asthma, kencing manis, sakit buah pinggang bla2…, cancer patients, AIDS patients, kids, small babies…) In these immunocompromised patients, they have very weak immune system. Therefore their body is not strong enough to fight the infection. So, from simple H1N1 flu it will melarat jadi penumonia (radang paru2 la dlm bahasa melayunya). In severe peumonia, you have problem breathing. If you can’t breath, you die. And of course, we as doctor will try to help you. We give oxygen, control the infection and if necessary we would put you under mechanical ventilation (in worst case scenario lah).

Currently in suspected or confirmed H1N1 cases, only those who requires hospital admission will be admitted (yg teruk2 aje). For those yg ader selsema, batuk2, we just give you MC to stay at home atau dlm bahasa glamernyer QUARANTINE for couple of days. Medication wise, we can give you antiviral. But usually, your body will fight the infection themselves. So take a good care of your body. We give paracetamol/panadol for your fever, muscle ache or headache and we advice for good hydration. Take a good rest. And please don’t spread your disease. If you are sick, don’t give your love ones free kisses hehehe… Kalau ader baby, jgnlah pegi cium baby tu. Kalau nak batuk, cover2 la sikit mulut/hidung. Practise good hand hygiene. Stay in bed and watch DVD!

I think there are few private clinics/hospitals yg provide H1N1 vaccine. By having the vaccine, you’re exposed to virus earlier. It will stimulate your body to produce antibodies and memory cells. So in the future if you’re contacted with the real H1N1, your body will say “hmm..this virus looks familiar, i fight them before. i already have some memory cells to produce antibodies in mass production and destroy it right away!”.. So, your flu episode would be shorter Having H1N1 vaccine does NOT mean you are protected from H1N1. Don’t forget you can have flu like symptoms as well with the vaccine! Plus, the efficacy and the side effects of the vaccine is still not fully established (still under research)

My advice:

1) Prevention is better than cure. So stay away from sick people. If people next to you is coughing, run away!

2) Stay healthy. exercise + eat healthy food with lots of fruit. Vitamin C will boost ur immune system. So a glass of fresh orange juice at lunch would be great

3) Don’t spread the disease. if you are having flu, stay at home. Take panadol/paracetamol, drinks a lot of water, bed rest. if your fever or symptoms worsen, seek appropriate medical treatment.

4) practise good hand hygiene (exp: Mr X a H1N1 victim is coughing. He wipes his nose with a tissue. Then he continue writing. Mr B come to Mr X desk and say “May i borrow ur pen?”. Mr X says “okay” and gives Mr B the pen that he is holding. Mr B starts writing. Suddenly Mr B rasa nak korek hidung. And he did! Guess what?? all the H1N1 virus from the pen is now in Mr B nose. Mr B got flu 3 days later hehe..) So, wash hands before korek hidung, wash hands after wipe ur nose, wash hands before eating, wash hands after going to toilet. wash hands, wash hands, wash hands!!!

5) stop smoking. don’t damage your lungs. nanti bile dpt infection or pneumonia, your lungs have to work double or triple harder to compensate the damaged lung tissues as the result of chronic smoking. Smoking –> damage lung –> + infection –> breathing would be MORE difficult –> you DIE easily!

So, don’t panic.

Again i say, don’t PANIC.

Relax la babe..

It’s just a flu outbreak.

P/s: the chances of me getting H1N1 is higher than yours coz i work in the hospital. Tapi semua org yg keje kat hospital tu relax je. So you guys yg kat luar tu patutnyer lagi la x payah nak panic2. relax aje.. stay cool :8

ps : i repaste this from belog dr. Lydia :)

call us CINTA :)

2009-07-28T23:07:00.008+08:00

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first. klik nama BFF saya ni -> anis AJ to cekidaud our hunting-baju raya day :)
now, im afraid na tunggu ie siap.
as my tailor is experimenting nu design on me.
hurm hurm ;( ~~takut mcm tunggu result exam kua jee~~
hope ta huduh la. i trust ur taste as a tailor, aunty :)
am so in love wif my kaen :)
first thng wen landing kl,
i wana drag afi go get one baju melayu same colour.
PINK!
hee~ yeay yeay. afi in pink :")
mmmm~ kena kis. chups chups. ehe.

okay.
so las week.
ive been to karaoke wif dydee, again.
dun noe la wut ev strucked our head,
karaoke 2 0 3 times in 10days periode?
is dat true dee? hehe.
after my case presentation, go to her house n hit her closet,
i wearing her long maxi dress :)
ah~ im loving it dee! ehe :")

at dydee's

with dydee, my bestest karaoke mate.
*series, she is one! * :)

waiting fo my mochabella and dee's coffee berry dkt jco.
and caught a guy, across our table curik2 snap pakai camera phone.
ingat i BCL la tu.
i asked dydee look at him.
we laff n stand dkt booth coffee, waiting.
and i almost tumpahkan both drinks.
clumsynyeee~
T.T

and this meow meow.
panggil la die omok. die suke nama tu.
and wen i make sound "mih mih"
he ran towerds me, kecikkan mata, n jatuhkan bdn ke lantai
and do mcm tu almost evryday :)
cumey je tau omok nie.
SLAPBUTT!

my afi wil start working ths coming monday :)
im afraid but do excited.
i cnt wait to have him here on weekends! hee :")
and i cnt wait to have kitty wif him two tree fo fa.
hun, ebie na scottish folded kity :)
heee~~

we still pk pk d name fo our kitty tgthr.
aww~
:")

ps : afi, ich liebi dich!

Im a freaky sex addict with a sexy smile who ran naked with an easter egg because im sexy as hell

2009-06-30T16:26:00.004+08:00

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First, add "I'm a/an" on your title, then add the rest of the answers on as you do the questions. Tag 10 people tag the person who tagged you.

What color/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid
[X] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[ ] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of pants are you wearing?
[ ]Shorts = cutie
[ ]Skirt/skort = skank
[ ]Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ]Tight jeans = scene kid
[ ]Ripped jeans = emo
[ ]Cammo = cage fighter
[ ]Jeans = prep
[ ]Pajamas = pimp
[ ]Cargo = clown
[ ]Sweats = athlete
[ ]Boxers = brat
[ ]Booty shorts = female
[ ]Capris = Gangster
[ ]Nothing = hoe
[ ]Dickies = weirdo
[ ]Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[x]Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair color?
[ ]Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ]Blonde = with a broken heart
[X]Black = with a sexy smile
[ ]Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ]Dark Red = that likes to have fun
[ ]Brown = who loves to be different
[ ]Dirty blonde= with a nice ass
[ ]Bald = with herpes

Pick the month you were born on:
[ ]1 = who ate
[ ]2 = who needed
[ ]3 = who killed
[ ]4 = who shot
[ ]5 = who killed
[ ]6 = who smoked with
[ ]7 = who banged
[ ]8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ]9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[ ]10 = who cuddled with
[ ]11 = who slept with
[x]12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ]01 = the kool-aid man
[ ]02 = a dog
[ ]03 = a shoe
[ ]04 = a toothbrush
[ ]05 = Santa Claus
[ ]06 = The Trojan man
[ ]07 = Barney the dinosaur
[ ]08 = a prostitute
[ ]09 = a porn star
[ ]10 = a bag of weed
[ ]11 = my lover
[ ]12 = a glass of milk
[ ]13 = a horse
[ ]14 = a lesbian
[ ]15 = a stripper
[ ]16 = a pickle
[ ]17 = a jew
[ ]18 = a homo
[ ]19 = an orange
[ ]20 = my mom
[ ]21 = a homeless guy
[ ]22 = a whore
[ ]23 = my crush
[x]24 = an easter egg
[ ]25 = a jar of honey
[ ]26 = a condom
[ ]27 = a bowl of cereal
[ ]28 = a french fry
[ ]29 = your dealer
[ ]30 = Paris Hilton
[ ]31 = your grandma

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing
[ ]White = because I love marijuana
[x]Black = because I'm sexy as hell
[ ]Pink = Because the lil people told me to
[ ]Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ]Red = because I'm a pimp and your jealous
[ ]Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[ ]Purple = because I'm gay
[ ]Gray = because I got dared
[ ]Other = because that's how I roll
[ ]Green = because I'm good in bed
[ ]Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ]Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ]Brown = because I had to
[ ]Shirtless = because I've got abs

conclusion from the above:
Im a freaky sex addict with a sexy smile who ran naked with an easter egg because im sexy as hell.

ps : thats hot :") and im tagging YOU :)

i absolutely love the boyfie :")

2009-06-29T20:43:00.009+08:00

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aritu myhati sgt sad.
i cry n cry n bebel.
i miss home. i stres stdy.
wif boyfie at d park wif me.
i cry n cry n mintak hug bnyk2 :"(
but-
he cnt give any n he felt sad too.
so-
he ask me to go proceed study group wif sara
and-
he promise thngs wil get better soon.

and-

balik dr study group.
sumthng makes me GRINNING smiling mcm baba kambeng itam.
tp baba kambeng itam yg kiyotla.
yg fluffy punye bulu la tapie.
*na jugak yg kiyot. ta le blah tp na jgak. eehe*

he did it. he make it.
:")

boyfie makeover our babies.
* fo d first time afta over a year we having this babies tgthr :)*
aaaa~
y u so cute?
u ske buat i jatuh cinta berjuta kali kan.
u na kena hug ke?
eee. geramnyee.
ehe
i love u beribu lemonlah boyfie!
come. here.
chups chups chups :*
hihi

nie emmit.
he's hot
he is my chuck bass jr.
and he is my ebieboy
and he specky jus like the boyfie too :")

and this beeyouteefull young lady here is qirana.
she got my hair traits, afi said :")
and she is boyfie's gudgal.

and wen im home frm stdygrup.
i SMILE baba kambeng itam non stop.
and dat bikin afi hepy two tree fo fai.
so-
afi kis kis me momotly until ~~i yawn yawn n fal aslip~~ he fall aslip
cz i noe. he must b tired
afta one day shopping n saloon-ing the babies :")
and afi's-sleep-look is so meow meow.
ehe
and. oh. again.
jatuh cinta :")

and that is why

van mini yang biru dan hari berkungfu faitinG

2009-06-25T01:17:00.008+08:00

STORY 1
hari2 p keje naek van mini biru nie.
tapi org2 ni sume suke hati je na isap rokok dlm tu ;(
sakit paru2 laaaa~
hurm :"(
tapi.
part cumey : naekla jauh manaaa pun. u oni ev to pay rm1.20.
cumey kan :")

STORY 2
L-R : poa. doctor on call. melvin.
(me the fotografer. credit untk dri sndri. hehe. perlukeee? perlu perlu! T.T)
patu we busan standby.
so
kami berkungfu :")
cis. hebat sungguh! tsk. tsk.
*anis aku da pandai gune tsk pada tempatnye. ehe*
wei, kungfu ape kungfu ape.
oh. relaks. relaks. korang ni ta saba na tau yeee.
cis. cakap la cepat. kungfu ape.
*korang bermonolog dalaman ke?? T.T ehe.*
haaa~ kungfu tangkap nyamook!
tgk laa tu gaya poa tangkap nyamok.
hebat sungguhkan.
dgn hanya menggunakan due buah jari.
cis. mesti die ingat die JETLEEEE time tu. ehe
tapi melvin ta hebat.
sbb die gune dua buah tangan.
so na geng poa lah.

ini adalah hasil tangkapan poa :")
banyak nyamok mok mok yg bisa diraih!
berapa banyak nyamok yg bisa diraih?
oh tenang tenang.
mari menghitung!
scroll scroll kebawah blog nieee...
scroll
keep scrolling bebeh~~

yap... eee... sam.. sey.. emmm...lok..pak..~~
*tidak terhitunglah*
pokoknya, kami berjaya la menjadi penjantan tangguh pd mlm itu :)
melvin buat muke ta puas hati.
lalu melvin tito.
hihi.

my guilty pleasure :)

2009-06-20T13:35:00.007+08:00

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my BIGGEST guilty pleasure :")

N O T E B O O K ! ! !

i LOVE notebooks.
i cnt help but to purchased them
n keep keep keep all of them!

a bookstore is my candystore :)
i can let my soul burping by sitting
in between the shelf n read all kinda books.
and and and.
i LOVE to sniff sniff a brand new books too
ehe.
habit yg kiyotkan~~
:")

anyone na bring me to a perfect date spot??
a bookstore wif a cafe is a YES YES place.
*bringme bringme. i promise, i'll bhave*
mmmmm~

*among notebooks that i have. anis jumpe some cute one! thanks anis. u d best :) *

Survival Tips for Medical Officers

2009-05-30T01:13:00.003+08:00

Don’t make any big decisions during the first year. “Don’t buy a pet, don’t move, don’t think you’re going to hate your career. The first year can be grueling. Life does get better.”

Lose the ego. “You come out of medical school thinking you know quite a bit or know everything, and that’s really not the case. It’s very humbling at first when you think you’ve got the right answer and you clearly don’t. Senior residents will show you that you’re wrong.”

Eat when you can, sleep when you can. “There are some times when you’ll be running 12 or 14 hours straight and not have a moment to eat.”

Don’t lie, don’t guess. “If you don’t know something, say, ‘I don’t know.’ Did you check the patient’s potassium last night, did you look at the X-ray or the EKG yourself? It’s always better to say, ‘No, I didn’t do that, I’ll do that now.’ ”

Keep reading. “I encourage the interns to read as much as they can, but it’s really hard. You’re working 14, 15 hours a day, you get home, the last thing you want to do is pick up a textbook. I had a surgical textbook and I photocopied the text a chapter at a time. I would fold that and put in my pocket. Then if you have 10 minutes and you’re waiting to make rounds, you can read it.” (Palmdoc: this is where a PDA will come in handy as you can keep all the important references in your pocket)

Ask questions. “One mistake I made was not realizing how much support is out there in the forms of other residents, [attending physicians], pharmacists. If there’s a question, instead of trying to reinvent the wheel, you can just ask. There was a component of pride in saying, ‘Well, I’m going to figure this out.’ That can slow you down and make you less efficient. And efficiency is key, because you’re managing a service with 30 or 40 patients.”

-the wall street journal-

my baby :")

2009-05-24T02:04:00.004+08:00

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oh oh.
a babydoll!!
T.T
my baby - marit larsen.
hu uh. my baby~
so kiyot with her fringe!
*cube na cakap dri sendri kiyot dgn fringe?*
tidak. tidak. bukan begitulah! T.T
hihi
kiyot wif her guitar
her cute voice!
n d stage all by her own ~~nak cenggitu juge T.T~~

cuba la dengar lagu nie.
me loving sume in it.
lyrics, guitars, voice. n her!
so adorable :)

I could try you with a waltz
I could try you rock and roll
I could try you with the blues
If a song would do

I could sing it high or low
When I let you go you know
I thought it was for the best
Now it is so obvious

So here it is, here it goes
I could try rock and roll
I would change your life forever too
If a song could get me you
I could make it high or low
Sing it on the radio
If that is what I need to do
If a song could get me you

I could run for miles and miles
I'd take off and I'd start flying
I could cross land and sea
If you just believe me

I should not have hurt you so
This old house is not a home
Without you here, there's no use
I've got no time left to lose

If a song could get me through
I'd sing my way, right back to you
Tell me how, to make it right
Tell me now, I'll start tonight
I know I could make it last

I swear to you that if I knew
What I was getting myself into
I wouldn't answer to my fears
I'd never leave you standing there

Just look at me

If you'd only see me
I would prove my love for you
I could swallow half the moon
Just tell me where, tell me when
I will have you back again

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wurdup wurdee wurdoo :)

2009-05-23T21:51:00.011+08:00

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sumone sumhow REALLY annoy me. just be urself n enjoy it :) n dunt kept cursing life cuz shyts happen once o twice,girl. why not u feel n accept d bad side of it instead of running away? pity u. seriesly. haa. ape bende aku ckp nie. hihi. i dun care you as much as you i tink i might too! sury~

exam approcahing. tapaya la na diskas bout it. takut nyeeee :"(

im in LOVE. na run towerds afi, n jump hug him n kis him n slap him. "you make me fall in love wif u n u make me miss u. bad you... " afi, even da a year and mo we together, evrytime we hava talk, evrytime i get ur sms, evrytime i take a luk at ur pics, i stil get those butterfly-in-the-stomach feelings :") i love u so faking dem muc! :* cnt wait to mit u n have those weak-shaking-knee feelings plak. ehe. power betul boyfie saya nie. :)

we baked cookies! and turn out ~~hangus~~ sedap gile *pujian org ramai even termasuk myself* ehe. me n dydee, we knocked off the electricity for the whole 3rd floor. TWICE! but we da downlow dgn all d residents dat we met up dkt bawah time komplen dkt bapak guard tu dgn muke aku-pun-tak-sangka-akan-jadi-begini.. T.T!

and dydee n me we had this one plan. we create a log buk fo "the plan" n paste n write n draw evry single thngs dat pop up in our mind bout "the plan". nice one ey! aku rasa mcm dlm mission imppossibble doh dee~ hehe. lets window's shopping and shopping, deeeeeeee~ i na change whole wardrobe! ehe.

i kinda miss my cat :"( i tink i need a cat.. cnt wait to b home n do d cathunt dgn afi. bebe na scottish folded cat tu tau syg. anythng to make me happy kan kan? kan im ur SP! syg syg, cnt wait to b.o.t.o.u. :")~ meow~ *purr purr*

i cut my hair to fringe n curl it temp. n i dun adore them really. and dydee got this blue streak hilites. peacock colours. nice one. series nice one!

lastly, my galfie faezah n sarah gave me this cute-white-buncit-fluffy-towel-base hippo. so mok mok oren. ehe. cuz that week sgt stressful. presentation, doctors matters, oncalls, blah blah blah. :"( muke asek stret patu if rasa sad nangis.. so, my switheart, ty! nama die at first dollah. patu they said nape dollah. sbb entah mcm mana masa tu suke sgt nanyie lagu, "faezah saerah, nama kau dollah, buntut kau sebelah" hehe. ~~cis. lame gile aku nie nanyie lagu tu~~ T.T tp suke gile. rasa mcm da >1 month takleh get rid lagu tu. asek rewind n play on n on dlm kepala. hee. okay. sambung balik. patu letak la nama dollah. dorang dgn muke agak kelat ta suke la. dala aku nanyie lagu tu tuk dorang hampir setiap pagi dan petang patu ckp buntut dorang sebelah. patu na plak letak nama dollah. mmg kelat la muke~~ hehe. so dey na bg nama abbas. :"( sad~~ i suke dollah. dorang na abbas. so bincang punye bincang. ceh~ mcm ape je kn. ehe. nama die pun DOLLAH ABBAS. dollah abbas kan.. die kan.. muncit gile.. rasa na penyek2 kan je evrytm tgk die otb. hihi.

nw, lets d pictures do d talking :)

mesti nenek ckp " bagus betul cucu i sorang nie"
nak pos dkt nenek la canie.
hehe.

tadaa~
me n dydee dgn cookie dough
yg belum ~~hangus~~ di bake. hihi :")

nie la DOLLAH ABBAS.
ade bink heart yg akan berkedip dan bunyi
"bink bink" bile die da abes nafas kena penyek
mcm dlm otromen kat teevee tu :)
tp i yg interframe lebih eh?
hee :")

the 12 jam hair style yg T.T

otw to saloon.
pouting baru nampak cool!
whoot whoot~
hehe :D

hari2 pie keje naek van mini wane biru

L-R : faezah dan saerah yg muntut die sebelah.
masa nie triple of us wear orange on purpose :")
bersatu teguh bercerai roboh.
apefak?
T.T
ehe

me n afi tgh nuntun bula chelsea together mether :)
he fokus on game. me fokus on him.
thats d way, hu uh hu uh,
i like it hu uh hu uh
*korang tau ta lagu tu?*

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Mini afi :D

2009-05-15T02:17:00.007+08:00

ini mini afi.
his mine mine mine.
hihi :")

mini afi make me laff n smile
patu rasa na kisss je
when tgh tense pk canelaa na kaitkan
malaria klinis dgn penyakit abses hepar ni??
hurm~
~~turn off betul kalau ckp pasal referat nie laaa :"(~~

my mini afi dlu ie belakon cete jibon!
uuuu~
celebrity afi saya nie :D

boyfie, b ingat je u belakon cete u syg.
tp juwe dgn ekey make me lebih terkesan
na google n crk mini u :D

muncungnyee mulut u syg~~
na kena kisss ke? :*

i love u!! eheh :D

im enjoying my mini afi's short clip again n again :")
~~na gigit gigit gigit boyfie balik antieeeee~~
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My super knight in d shiny amour :")

2009-05-13T19:58:00.012+08:00

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I can’t explain how I feel about him,
But my heart he have to win.

It’s funny how he’s so far away,
but just to hear his voice would make my day.

He’s always what I think about,
And his love I can’t go without.

Why does it have to be like this?
It’s him that I always miss.

Even though he’s on the other side of the earth,
I’d go there, that’s what he’s worth.

I’ve got to know him so well.
It’s like I got caught in a love spell.

oh.

im so in love, i must say :)

because he always bright my day

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY, Boyfie :)
Galfie love u so faking dem muc!

PS : pingu, b felt like baru last month u norat norat i, syg.
bebe rindu syg b sgt sgtlah~... canie niee??
slapbutt syg la canie. ehe.
patu bebe na kiss syg lemas2 smpi syg tale uat pape da
patu na hug kuat2 sgt sgt sgt..
patu na nanyie lagu kuat2 dlm kete dgn syg :)
b rinduuuuu syg bebe :*

heart
C I N T A
L O V E
Rindu
H U G
K a s i h
Sayang
Amou'r
Jet'aime
Kiss

HER AFI GUFY ......................................................HIS BEBE BUNY

my mama is my hero.

2009-05-10T19:38:00.009+08:00

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She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I should'nt be
Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
Mama, I love you.
Mama ,I care
Mama, I love you .
Mama, my friend. You're my friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be
Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn't know why

MAMA, SPICE GIRL

If ive been asked what does it tooks
from my mama to b among the
GREATEST mums ever in the world, trust me.
i can list more than any numbers that exist in this world..

To my mama :

ma..
remember ta theres a time adek dkt mrsm kuala lipis,
masa tu nak SPM.. adek stress sgt2.
adek owes cry cuz adek takut..
adek takut takleh na score..
cuz adek takmo ayah mama malu cousins n our big families telefon..
adek takmo mama stret face wen kawan2 office mama ask bout results SPM adek..
adek takmo mama ayah ta excited apply borang pengajian tinggi tu ini mcm family org laen..
adek nak mama ayah rasa proud of having me as ur daughter..
adek takut sgt na spm, ma..

mama..
ma ingat tak..
ade one day tu,
adek ingat persis, hari khamis.
petang tu, adek lapar sgt.. sbb dah 2 weeks adek ta makan nasik.
adek too busy.. loose appetite adek..
tp hari khamis tu..
adek go dewan makan.. tutup.
sbb takde elektrik and air..
adek na pergi beli makanan dkt cafe.. food sume dah abes sbb sume org pn lapa..
kawan2 adek makan megie.. adek tak makan sbb mama said jangan..
adek nye food sume da abes..
adek call mama.. adek cry.. adek lapar.. adek stress..
selfish nye adek time tu kan mama..
adek cry and cry sbb adek stress..
mama cakap.. sabar.. tunggu.. nanti bukak la dewan makan tu.. etc etc..
adek marah mama.. adek ckp.. mama ta faham..
adek stres.. adek lapar.. mama boleh ckp sume sume tu..
adek cry lg n hang ur phone..
masa tu mama tgh keje.. mama ta call adek balik..
lagi adek cry n marah dkt mama..

then dah maghrib..
mama call.. adek taknak angkat..
kenapa skarang mama baru nak call?
mama dah ta syg adek ke?
lama sgt adek tunggu mama na call adek.

adek bia je mama call ulang2.
pastu mama msg. adek ta baca. adek pergi solat.
masa balik solat tu, adek nampak kete ayah dkt bawah tu..
adek lari kat kete adek nampak,
mama ayah still pakai baju keje tunggu adek dgn tupperware2 atas meja..

ya tuhan..
mama. did u noe, dat moment, really2 make me felt.. sgt bad :(
mama ta call adek sbb mama rush balik dr keje..
mama masak adek nasik.. sambal ikan bilis.. ikan goreng n telur..
mama rush ayah balik na go tempat adek...
adek tau.. kuala lipis masa tu mana ade hiway.. jalan mcm ular..
adek tau esok mama keje lagi..
adek tau berjam2 baru smpai ceruk kuala lipis tu..
adek tau tol ratus2 pergi balik..
mama sanggup dtg..

adek dtg adek hug mama..
adek try ta cry.. adek cuba tahan sgt2..
adek malu nak cry sbb adek ignore mama tadie..
belum sempat adek na salam cium tgn mama..
mama hug adek balik..
mama ask "how are u syg" ..
patu mama ckp sury..
mama sury sbb mama ta sempat masak kurma yg adek suke
sbb mama ckp lama na tunggu ayam unfroze..
mama ckp lg sury sbb mama masak ala kadar.. :"(
mama. u shudnt say sury ma..
i do. i shud sury beribu2 kali ma..
hurm..
adek cry kuat2 hug mama..
masa tu adek rasa mcm na sujud mintak maaf dkt mama..
mama..
i love u so much..
u dunt noe hw much i love u ma..
u r so wonderful woman ever!
in every single things u do..
im proud of having u as my mum.

mama,
thank u fo taking a fabeles care of me.
thank u fo ur understanding n tolerate evry tiny bits on me.
i love u.

and i tink ma..
u r rite wen u sms pagi tadi..
"mother's love will never end" ..

happy mother's day mama.
u r among the greatest mama in this world :")

PS : and ayah is very lucky to have u as his wife. i wana be just like u. i love u, mama.

mama and his husband :)

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malas vs rajin. hee~

2009-05-02T23:04:00.004+08:00

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baru beberapa menit post entry list malas,
rajin rasa nyee na baca my favourite quotes dlm buku cecelia ahern tu.
tarik buku keluar dr book rack, jatuh one card.

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Our Daughter, Shahnaz Md Nor,

... We will be miles apart. We will miss you very much.

Life is not going to be easy for you;
you have to cook, wash up and do your own laundry.

And top of this, you still have
to pursue your studies and pass your exams.

We send you this card to let you know
that you will be in our
thoughts and prayers.

We love you
very much
and we are
very proud of you

Study hard,
Do your best and
Be good.

we love you, Shahnaz Md Nor...

Salam Rindu Mama & Ayah.
22092005

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cis~
hihi.
*garu kelapa*
BIG turn off betullah untuk mode malas shahnaz yg tadi sgtlah malas.
petanda petanda petanda untuk bermaen dgn buku catatan, magic pen, hiliters, buku2 teks yg SUPER-nipis-dan-ringan-NOT!
haha.

MODE : separa malas dan insaf untuk rajen :)
ma adek na upload sum pics dkt belog dlu laaaaa~ baru setadiiii. janji!
chups!

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LIST malas shahnaz

2009-05-02T22:20:00.010+08:00

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APA yang dimalaskan shahnaz bila LAZINESS struck shahnaz's brain :

1. medec student tapi hakikatnya malas na STUDY.
boleh ta bluetooth je sume2 dr buku HARISON tu masuk dlm otak ni?
apa na jadie?
*slap fohead*

2. malas BANGUN PAGI.
malasnyeeee!
malas betul na kena dengar bunyi maxim maen piano semangat2 *nada alarm HP sony*.
malas betul na masak air buat kopi.
malaslah na menggigil telompat2 mandi air sejuk.
malas lah nak gosok tudung, baju kurung patu kena spray2 sbb kena make sure ta kerut ape sume.
malas betul lah na tgk cermin sbb kena pakai lotion la SPF la.
~~pemalasnyeeeee anak mat no nieee~~

3. malasnyee lah na charge hp, itouch, camera, laptop.
perasaan bile na pakai bende2 tu sume tp tgk2 je
bahagian kanan atas tu atau bhgn bawah kanan untuk laptop,
gambar kotak bateri tu haaa...
kosong kontang..
malasnyee na crk charger dlm kotak wire tu...
malasnyeeeee malasnyeee malasnyeeee:(

4. malasnyeee na kuar umah o hospital wen matahari tegak atas kepala.
*wow tipu gile. ehe*
dan ditambahkan lagi cerita malas tu dgn apabila
lupe bawak payung-esprit-mahal-aku *bak kate anis*
hitamla kulit coklat i :) ehe.
sia2 je pergie jumpe dokter BEDAH PLASTIK untuk kulit i tau. mahal u~~
*bedah plastik untuk kulit muka. bukan kencangkan payudara, oren.*
~~suke mama adek ckp jumpe dokter bedah plastik utk kencangkan payudara dat day ae.. amboi, ketawakan adek bukan maen dlm phone. haha. u funnyla mama love. and dats y ilusfm.~~

5. malasnyeee na updet belog.
tp banyak gile benda nak di belogkan.
melambak2 gambar dlm folder nama *me belog*
evrytime keluar je, haa amek la pic nie. boleh belogkan antie. idea idea.
tetapi... bile sampai umah... malasnyeeee~~~
org laen semua senonoh je belog dorang. updated. cantik. menarik~~~
hurm!

6. malasnyeee na cuci tangan dgn alkohol....
sakitlah~~ malas lah~~
na je lepas pegang patient tu, terus makan ke lepak2 ke..
iklan: i'ev been diagnosed as BRONCHITIS las 3 weeks.
im d bronchiters. hihi. cool jgak nama bronchiter tu :) heee~

7. malasnyeee sit-up, jogging o dance. lamanyee ta swimming!!!

pendek kate : im activating a mode. its a MALAS mode.
welcome buntut gemuk perut muncit..
i hate u.

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noone can replace u

2009-04-25T02:45:00.001+08:00

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sayangku zafrie ikhmal,

der r no words to xpress hw b fil bout u, syg.

u are my life, my heart, and my soul.
u are my best friend.
u are my one true love.
i love u.

I still rmmbr d day we first met.
i pick u up at d lrt bts :)
i stil rmmbr d moment we sat together otb
n u propose me to be ur gal.
n by dat moment,
I knew that u were the one
I was meant to be with forever.

I've said it bfo and I'll say it again,
words cant xpress how u make me fill dip inside syg.

I make dis promise to u my dear,
to love you the way dat u love me.

I now luk to the future and forget d past,
ur life is mine and we will make it last,
together.

I love u mo today than I did yesterday,
and I'll love u mo tomorrow than I do today.
With all my heart I am forever yours.

sayangku zafrie,
u are my everything.
Thank you for loving me the way no one can.

u understand me and u noe just hw to make things right.
u will never know just how much I love you,
but I will spend the rest of my days trying to show u.

Loving you is easy because...
you're the one for me.

I trust u,
I nid u,
I wan u,
and I know I ev u.
I love you.

I have waited for someone like u,
my pingu :)
and now that I have found u I will never let u go.
I love u so much syg.
i love u.

i hope this feelings spark us evrywhere,
anythng we up to.
n there is no time, nuting, to end it.

i love u.
my zafrie ikhmal :)

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Marriage. Now? When?

2009-04-01T18:29:00.007+08:00

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hye.
saya lahir 1986.
so kalau qta hitung ' yap ee sam sey' dah 23 tahun la.
but pls count me as 22 okay.
sbb bday december.
takkan la december +1 tahun.
patu masuk january +1 tahun lg! *_*
cepat la tua canie~~~

ok. ok.
korang nak tahu ta~~~~
a guy who last time close wif me.
he wana get marry soon. *gulp*
and his current gf not dat rely ok wif me.
d reasons he told me..
sbb i cantik, pandai, sweet, ~~sopan santun, berbudi pekerti~~
perluke tulis semua?
taperlulah teman2..
anti kalian semua muntah2 kerut dahi baca. :) hihi.
and dat she wurid if her bf suke saya kembali.
ehe. thank u, gal :)
i felt honoured la begitu.
bukan senang dapat pujian tahu!! :")
n i ta suke pun BF u.
i bencie gile dgn die.
sbb tulah saya da ta close dgn die, ok?

btw,
bukan saya jeles he na kawen or bestfren nak kawen.
bukan rasa ta bes jgak.
happy for them! but entahlah..
rasa mcm..
perasaan yg no-word-can-describe-the-feelings lah~
but. its a gud one :)
nice one.
really.

top 5 reason mengapa shahnaz ~~sigh~~ tegamam with topic kawen nie.

1. Because we are still young. 23 babe!!! ~~eh! rasa tua la plak type angka 23. hoho. cis~~~
2. I felt a bit left behind with those besties yg na kawen.
they wil have their own partner to have fun with, to cry on,
to spend d weekends with.how wif me?
~~terpaksalah 24jam dgn afi je after this! yes yes yes! hehe.~~
3. Cant think any reason fo number three.
4.Belum habis belajar. Belum kerja. ~~Belum masuk nona!~~
5.Tunggu Chuck Bass meminang sayalah. sape lagi. He currently busy shooting GG lagi. its ok hun. cuz sayang, i'm waiting patiently fo u to say those sacred words. hee!
THREE WORDS. EIGHT LETTERS :)

xoxo,
Shahnaz Bass :")

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2009-03-15T23:01:00.012+08:00

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MPM'S babe - shahnaz :: sarah :: faezah :)
*mpm aka maju pantang mundur*
with motto : MENUJU PUNCAK! ehe.

tomorrow, officially,
shahnaz wil b an interna's interns :)
hee huu~
11 weeks!
yes yes :)
i wil travel travel, oncall, tak tito, berlari n ~~kena mara~~ n
sume2 wif so much fun~ he!
*i wil make sure i get those fun wut ever it may cost me!*

baru masuk adaptation td..
dah ade satu patient past away.
hurm~
that wunt make me dwn.
i will make sure n take a very good care of my patientS!

wow!
shahnaz so ~~berlakon~~ rajen.
aha :")

i handle two rooms. total - 8 patientS :)
they all sakit batuk kering aka TB aka Tuberculosis, and HIV.
i handle infection room fo a week.
so pls pray fo me.
dat im clean from those infections :|~
cuz apparently the specialist ta wear any gloves n masks
whch make me as a sumone yg lg rendah derajatnye
cnt wear one o else d doctors, prof n
wutsoever yg hebat2 tu felt insulted.
hurm hurm.
hey org2 yg hebat,
its an UNIVERSAL PRECAUTION kot!

okay,
pape je fo dat.
this is my oncall time table :)
*shut. i lost my notes. okay i ingat2 sket. hee*

~~PROUDLY~~ my SUPER ONCALL timetable :)

munday : 6am-6am
tuesday : 6am - 9pm
wednesday : 6am - 6am
thursday : 6am - 9pm
friday : 6am - 2pm
saturday : 6am - 9pm
sunday : 6am-6am

i cnt wait to start my interna.
to dig all d ilmu out from those intelligent doctors, specialist n profS!
cn i jus ~~eat u guys nye brain~~
bluetooth all of ur super duper ilmu to my brain?
*giggle giggle n giggle*
ehe.

oh.
frens, pray fo me yes?
i need it.
i dun wan any infection.
i wan good health so i cn work n perform well.
n yes, i wan end this interna in 11 weeks with style!
n rock d interna's exam two tree fo fai.
hee~ seriesly..
im dying to perform well this time.
cuz of d sp. Rad lah nie!
*i blaming u ok mister!*
you sp. Rad really make me guilty ey!
nakal! waktu exam ckp aku siti nurhalizalah.
*giggle*
but, you. you gv me a tots. good one!
thank u. REALLY thank you!
rasa na hug him n say thank u ~~dengan teary eyes!~~
ehe :)

ps : im gona mis FB n belog so much!
i wil go buy nu camera next week n yes.
akan updet hell lotsa pics. yeh? ehe. :")~

S P R E A D T H E L O V E P E O P L E ! ! : )

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hari yang best :)

2009-03-14T16:08:00.014+08:00

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got style to b a radiolog?
no way! hee~
shahnaz tamo jd dr radiologist!

yesterday exam photo reading *radiology department*
630 am. end roun 745am.
omfg. susahnyeeee lah photo reading nie.
sumpah tamo jadi radiologist.
then petang tu afta teman si comel jumpe her consulent,
saya go menghadap my specialist yg akan menguji saya on my referat *paperwork*
my referat title adalah "teratoma : kista dermoid @ dermoid cyst"
pergi menghadap untuk lapor "im d student die kena uji" bukan mintak exam.
but he instead ckp, exam je on d spot.
omg. i ta ready seriesly NOL dlm otak.
patu dgn feeling ta percaya diri cuz ta ready fo exam.
n dgn semalam tito 1 jam je cuz na study photo fo exam pg td.
dgn perut lapar ta breakfast sume..
kena juga exam :|~
so no nid to guess..
of course BANYAK soalan die tale dijawab.
which SEMUA susah. he didnt realy ask me bout my paper work tho.

among thousand of pathology radiology's picture
shahnaz need to read n study it.
info : mata radiologist sgt tajam s they cn see n
bezakan evry single details dlm photo tu.
fuhh~
i dun wana be a radiologist!
*again* hee!

sp. RAD (specialist radiologist)
me (shahnaz)

sp. Rad : oh. awak buat judul kista dermoid ya.
terangkan kepada saya semua yg awak tahu mengenai kista dermoid.
me : baik dok. kista dermoid itu adalah ....... bla bla ....
aetiology nya ......epidemiology ......
radiolodgy.....ct-scan...USG... bla bla~
sp. Rad : bagus, shahnaz, kenape takde MRI photo?
me : erk, maaf doc, dari penilitian yg saya lakukan
(ecece. bg dgr serius n sedap sket. ehe.)
dikatakan, hanya dengn foto polos n CTscan da bole diagnosed d patient.....bla bla..
sp. Rad : okay. so if dkt ct scan gambaran ape yg awal bisa lihat shahnaz? dan mengapa?
me : oh. kite bisa lihat kista itu sebagai gambaran hiperechoic dan ini karena tampakan dr gumpalan lemak.....sebasea.... bla bla~

yang type sume2 tu among part yg saya hebat jawab saje :)
ehe. yang tale2 jawab mane leh let people know.
but yang laen tu mmg susah la.
even jawab pun he said ta tepat. salah. o i ta jawab at all :|
haihs, mana la tahu kena exam on d spot. moral down. moral down!

sp. Rad : shahnaz, kenapa awak tale jawab saya? susah kah soal2 saya?
me : *gulp* susah dok. maaf dok saya tdk bisa jawab
sp.Rad : kita tu sebagai doktor harus sentiasa siap ...bla bla *syarahan membina* :|
me : baik dok. saya akan cuba sedaya upaya saya.
sp.Rad : ya sudah. kamu keluar dulu ya. saya mahu hitung markah kamu.
me : baik dok.

takut gle tunggu dkt luar.
i felt mcm its ok la if fail.
ala~ tapi kena repeat two weeks lagi.
malasnyeee~
dah mmg banyak ta bole jawab, wut to do :|

sp. Rad : shahnaz! masuk.
me : ye dok ye. *lari2 masuk*
sp. Rad : kamu rasa kamu lulus tidak?
*smbl lambai2 envelope markah saya*
me : hurm. penilaian dok, terbaik untuk dok bagus untuk saya, dok.
sp. Rad : baik jika begitu, saya mahu awak pulang dan belajar.
saya mahu awak .... bla bla....
me : hurm. baik dok.

na i go home n study? dat means kena repeat week ke?
mata da berkaca otw p surau na sulat asar.
camne nak masuk interna nie!! hurm hurm.
eee. na tgk markah dok bg lah.
curik2 buka envelope.
OMG. td mata teary je. nw crying. :|~
the sp. Rad gave me 82. A.
hurm~ agak high la markah tu.
if A saluu doctor2 ni gv sekitar 80 and below je.
i cry cuz i felt mcm ta puas hati.
i shud cn perform well if i study n ready well bfo exam.
he make me guilty n yes. rasa na belajar lagi.
rasa na je patah balik n hug him! ehe.
n janji kuat2 saya tidak akan mengecewakan anda! :)
mesti die pk aku gile. so cancel patah balik.
solat doa cry puas2 n balik dgn hati gembira! heee~

shahnaz 1 : uit uit. sudah2 la tu belog. FB. p la study tu shahnaz!
td ckp da guilty pe sume~ heE~
kan munday ni da na stat interna.
*ur second killer dept fo 4th year kan kan*
shahnaz 2 : yelah, yelah. na stop ah nie. ta saba betul.
na say papai da pun nie haa.

this is boyfren saya wen im in peadiatric dept :)
his name is giovanni.
n he is so jeles if ade guy wif me n
he dun wan any nurses o doctors
other than me *ehem ehem*
to examine him.
oh, so cute :)
he~

so , BYE BYE :)
*fo now only, ok?* :)

my new found babe :)

2009-03-12T20:02:00.009+08:00

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Full Name : Intan Rohayu.
Pet name by others : Roro.
Pet name by you : RoroChickyLicious

Her Best Feature : Her eyes wen she smile so wide :)
Her Sweetheart : IkmalHafiz Isa.
Her Club : Chelsea.

Currently : Russia.
Home : Next few month for good.

Dream : Bel-bel vacation wif me!
*sexy naked dish, love?* ehe.
Sharing : Her momma wif me!
I like her because : she's gud at heart. really good! :)
and oh yes.
roro SWEET too! :)

rorochickylicious,
see.
sgt LITTLE of u i know kan?
so.
be close to me?
n make it longer.
cuz
i wana know u.
almost evrythng of u.

RORO babe,
when u're down and troubled,
and u need some loving care,
and nothing, nothing is going right

close ur eyes and think of me
and soon i will b there
to brighten up even ur darkest nite.

if d sky above u
grows dark and full of clouds
and the old north wind begins to blow,

kip ur hand together
n call myname out loud
soon ull be hear me knocking at ur door.

u just call out my name
winter, spring, summer or fall
all u have to do is call
and i'll be there
u've got a FRIEND :)

Y O U
my new found babe :)
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Gambar cakap seribu bahasa? :)

2009-03-11T14:56:00.004+08:00

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babe, ILYSFM :")

P.S : this little girl up there, really really a sweetheart. n yes, she's mine! :)

sunday sundae :)

2009-03-01T23:45:00.012+08:00

.....

tuday bgn awal :)
sebab ape? sebab ade bnyk sms masuk.
ganggu aku tito sgtlah~~ ehe.

" morning sha eksotik, jom aerobik dkt bawah tuday"
" weih bgn wey, sukaneka. semangat semangat rumah merah"
" hye pretty, rise up. u gotta b devil tuday" *cuz saya rumah merah* :)
" jom jom join us.. blah blah... *panjang betul die sms. malas aku baca. delete je. aha* ;P

since bgn da lambat, cuz tatau pun kena join ape2 games.
go toilet basuh muke, gosok gg, pakai loreal uv perfect *uva/uvb protector yg bes*,
patu crk trek suit. shut. takde.
mmg takde pun, carik pun ta gune. ehe.
so crk shirt merah, n spray CK one *harum sgt* sbb perfume laen sume da abes.
lari2 turun n ber aerobik la saya :)
i LOVE aerobik but td kurang kick la. *sury la adek aerobik :)*
i penah handle n masuk competition aerobik. *tp sbb judge tak adil -cewah- dpt no2 je*
aerobik cant b held like dat tp sape pedulik :)
kan na hepy2 lompat2. nasib baek la lagu up to date so joget2 sket.
ehe.

kakak, uma biru o red nie? :")

then ketua ruma merah *not me apparently*
pangil we all sume n bagi we cekak tanduk yg devil yg ade bateri patu nyala2 lampu tu.
OMFG. bes :) sbb las two nite, farhan sebuk tunjuk die ade tanduk lampu..
yela~ kat bilek ni ade tanduk tade lampu je,
beli dkt DUFAN -dunia fantasi, jakarta. dwi yg bagi. tq dwi. :)
yes! now bole show off! eehe

RED DEVIL - plg bes!! :")
dan saya yg plg kiyot.
heE~

so saya masuk la pertandingan mkn icecream~
STOP! saya ta makan icecream cuz i dun wana.
so i jd d one yg kena tutup mata...

ish ish~ manyaknyee die ckp~
bdak sebela saya ni da tutup mata da tu.
"benci aku~ "
ehe :")

patu they pusing2 kan saya in a place.
kepala da pusing. adoi~
patu wen they start. i run! ahahaha.
they sume jerit2 yes yes yes.
sbb yg 3 lagi uma hijau kuning biru sume jalan slo2 je.
pening kot. :D~
dah sampai dkt my mate, buka icecream *cornetto tau*
n suap die. kena hidung, muka sume la.
sape kesah. sume kesah na menang je.
ahahaha. i lauf senang hati die com0t.
n yes. sbb i run, i won! FIRST PLACE BABE. FIRST! :)
YES YES :)

mamam mamam!
cepat lg.
taya munch!!
telan je -->
tu bdak2 sekeliling yg jerit bukan saya :")

patu malas na join game lain2,
jus jerit2 bg semangat n kutuk2 rumah laen n hasut2 ruma laen bg kalah :)
ehe.
ive make them jerit merah is H-O-T-T-O-G-O.
*menggunakan pengalaman cheerleading yg dulu*
mmg sporting habis bdak2 nie.
ingatkan nerd na matie.
tenyata nicE~ ehe.
rumah laen LAME. boo! boo!
takde benda2 tu. aha.

rumah kuning!!
they sgt pesaing hebat.
rumah hijau n biru ta setandard we all. ehe. sury :)

den i come up dgn motto, DEVIL,PLAY NO MERCY.
sume mcm suke motto saya tu haa. menyala2 kepala kiterong lompat2 hepy :)
bile ade team we all maen je, red devil, play no mercy!!! menjerit2.
patu kuning mcm excited jerit2 jgak tgk we all excited,
die ter jerit 'KUNING, PLAY NO MERCY!!'
hah! we all sume terdiam. tergamam pun ade.
tgk die. usha dgn pandangan tajam. n KETAWA!
ape lagi. BOOOO!! BOOOO!!
mmg jadi bahan la dek oi~~
tu umah akak nye says kot.
ehehehe. mmg syok la bahan die ulang2.

n yes, at the end of d day,
CK one da hilang bau berganti dgn bau2 laen :)
suara da rock2.
n kaki da cram.
n bdan da penat.
n yes, muke senyum je.

cuz theres juniors come approach me saying,
"kakak, nama u ape?
u ni energetic n happy lumpat je"
*cis! bes gile! rasa mcm artis sekejap* ehe.
u juniors are fab! thank u fo making my dayS~

conclucion : my sunday murning tuday is a choc sundae. soo yummy!

"majulah sukan untuk negara"

......

goodbye my lover.

2009-03-01T13:14:00.011+08:00

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Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

james blunt - goodbye my lover :)

......

i wana speak out here.
now.

firstly, to all d great lovers who came to my life dlu, n recent,
know this, THANK U.
i owe u BIG time fo making me realise thngs.

Loves,
i realise sumthng nw.
it takes time fo me to realise this tho.
that i deserve to be happy.
yes, senyum n lompat2 gile2, whch im good in kan?

n that nothing noone deserve my tears...

that i shud not fear to letting go sumthng sumone
who not able to make me hepy d way i dserve it to be...

that i need to kip going n

no guilty on those thngs i shudnt guilt on!

that i need to stand up n
say wut i wan n
chase my dreams like it used to b...

to those thngs n peoples
who make me unhappy uneasy uncomfy..
im sury. so sury.
its not dat i dun wana tolerate nymo.
i do tolerate n sabar to d highest point i cn b.
but its just dat..
i cnt do dat nymo.
i dun wana b like dat nymo.
aku penat doh!
FED UP!

i got my own dream n life i fantasise jgak..
i wana b der. fully me. be there.
i na fly happily n smile n laff with no worries in my heart.
and even there is worries, that wil not b a thng whch
cn make me stone face tbe2 o cry tbe2 jus to tink of it.
dah.
aku da penat.
series.

seriesly, da penat na hold on..
da penat na tolerate the feelings i kept to my self.

to those thngs o people yg da smpi to my peak point of toleration.
im letting u go now..

thank u. seriesly thank u.
fo being there in my path of life.

its just me. now.
i cnt nymo.
i work thngs up to d max.
i swear its true.
but thngs cnt work if there's only one side who work it on aite?
hurm~

to those thngs n people who yang i stil holding on.
know dat.
im tryng my best to hold on here.
i can frown n cry jus to tink of this fo quite sometime.
so not fair to me, kan?
y shud i be nice o guilty o love u

while u takde slight wury to hurt me..

takde feelings lgsg if thrash my trust..

takde guilt to make me sad. cry easily.

but stil, im holding on..
i try my bes here.
pls realise thngs. fast.
i need u. wan u. to work this wif me.

im not dat selfish.
thats too cliche tho.

its jus dat. now.
i noe now wut i wan.
i noe now wut i need most.
i noe now dat life is all bout happiness n hurt.
if there is love, there is break up
if theres is hello, there is byebye.
i jus need to choose among all d choices. wisely.
n if ever i face any hurt cuz of letting go,
i deal wif it. i need to.

to be in o to be out.
letting them in o letting them out.

loves,
i dun wana disappoint myself.
nymo. again n again.
i dun wana chase thngs i noe im not fully in with..

i wana be with people who care me..
who try their hard to make me felt that im loved, appreciated n important.

who take a very gud care of d frenship we built there.
who takut gile na thrash my trust.
who wana sit as low as me, stand as high as me..

loves,
make me happy if i deserve to be happy.
love me if that wut i deserve to be.
work on me if u thnk im worth it all.

and if ever u felt like wut i felt.
sound it out.
letme noe.
we let go o we work thngs up.

to all d BFF.
i LOVE u.
thank u thank u so faking much..
ehe.

fo making me realise n make me clear..
my priority. my needs.
and-
fo those sunrays to my bleak sky.
i need them most. always.
shine those rays forever.
pleasE? :)

damn i cant live without all of u.
BFF, hold my hand tite. pls.
be true to me.
i promise u.
that i wil owes hold ur hand tite in mine.
lama2. kuat2.
wutever it takes me to. :)

to ALL d gals who been jeles to me cuz d boys
into me..
b fren wif me..
or hepy with me..
or ape2 jela..
stop being mad at d boys.
get thngs clear with them n
if nythng, confront me nicely.
ask me. n make thngs clear too.
simple. okay?
ok. good.

SO-

speak it out to me.
tayah na secretly email me...
tayah na sms2 kacau my life o d bf...
wen both of us said we dun like u.
we mean it.
head up. pls go.

im SICK of all of this.
please.

GET A LIFE!

im tired.

and
oh. yes..

ps : soulmate - u d bes fo d moment.
u undrstnd thngs.
saw thngs dat i yet to see.
thank u. like u said.
we there fo each otha on d best of time..
u know well hw to make me smile n laff my heart out.
cnt wait to mit u n ev u roun me.
sparkle me those happy dust u ev on u to me?
please. :)

to those who im letting go, goodbye.
to those im still holding on, work on us. now.
to those who yet to b my loves, hello. welcome :)

i live the life i wan.
the bes i can.
i wan to be me.
love being me.

Proud to b a bitch. oh, so bitchy :) part II

2009-02-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

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From my perspective for the first part,
it describes the kind of person a woman has to be to get what she wants.

If all the women I touch in my work could learn to internalize this concept and be nice doing it,
the world would be a better place for both men and women.

Does being a nice bitch sound like a contradiction?
I don't think so.
It just means treating others openly, honestly and with respect.
It means saying what you mean and meaning what you say.
It means telling the truth and being vulnerable, as well as standing up for what you believe.

My strategy is pretty simple.
Men want to produce results and because they don't know what women want,
they can really produce more if they are given direction.
Women must give up being mean, angry and vengeful about anything and spend most of their time defining what they want so they can express their appetite.

Women, where do you start?
By taking care of yourself.
Making sure you get your needs met.
If there is no man in your life giving you nurturing, give it to yourself.
In order to attract a good man, you must be secure about who you are and you must have the self-esteem to ask for what you want.

BUT please GIRLS, back off from someone's BF o HUSBAND please!! *yucks*
that is SO BITCH yang dem BITCH.
not NICE BITCH like what i try to tell here. thank u :)
BUT again, its up to u. u know what best for u and what works u happy there.
just remember, what goes round comes around... :)

I know I must sound like a broken record about this, but it is what works.

Women are so used to nurturing and taking care of others,
that they forget to take care of themselves.

Men are simple creatures, women are complex.
We can't change that.
Accept it and be joyous about it.

Relationship coaching is life coaching.
Life becomes extraordinary when we discover that
being absolutely committed to taking care of ourselves,
leads to abundance in every aspect of our lives.

hell yeah :")

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Proud to b a bitch. oh, so bitchy :)

2009-02-23T21:05:00.001+08:00

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When one stand up for their self and their beliefs, they call her a bitch.
When one stand up for those she love, they call her a bitch.
When one speak her mind, think her own thoughts, or do things her own way, they call her a bitch.

Being a bitch entails to be strong people who have a solid sense of personal and social responsibility, who are not afraid to stand up for what they believe in and who love and respect themselves for the beautiful beings they are.

Being a bitch means that we free to be the wonderful creature that we are,
with all our own intricacies, contradictions, quirks and beauty.

Being a bitch means we won't compromise what's in our heart.
It means we live my life OUR way. It means we won't allow anyone to step on us.

I am proud to be a bitch! aww~ ehe.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken, opinionated, and determined.
By God, I want what I want, and there is nothing wrong with that.

So try to stomp on me,
try to douse my inner flame,
try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed :)
And if that makes me a bitch, so be it.
I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.
B - Babe I - In T - Total C - Control of H - Herself

Tell this to all the bitches you know, or anyone you feel should become a bitch :)
And by the way...
if I were a man with these same qualities,
I would be called independent, strong, self- assured, confident, determined, and driven.
This was not intended to offend anyone, and I hope you all enjoyed it as much as I did!

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75 Simple Pleasures to Brighten ur Day :)

2009-02-22T16:01:00.006+08:00

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A little trick I like to use to make my days much more pleasant is to find little, simple pleasures and sprinkle them throughout my day.

They’re not big things, but they each simple pleasure can translate to a great day if you use them right.

So in the morning, I might have a cup of coffee, and sip it slowly to enjoy it fully. I might read a gripping novel, and revel in the world of fiction. I might watch the sun come up, and marvel at the world in pastel hues.

For breakfast, I might put blueberry sauce on my bread. i love bueberry sauce.. yumm~
I savor each one, closing my eyes. In the shower, I might also close my eyes, and just let the cool water run over me.

You get the idea — these are little things, and don’t really cost a thing (or not much, anyway), but they are tremendously satisfying. I’ve just described some of the things I might do to start off my day, but the possibilities are endless, and can be done throughout the day.

I thought it would be fun to compile a list of simple pleasures, to give you all some ideas of what I mean, and to spark other ideas of your own. Of course, you can probably come up with a thousand more, and it should also be noted that one person’s pleasures aren’t always pleasures for others.

Blueberry … mmmm.
Walking barefoot in grass.
Listening to good music in the car.
Taking a long, relaxing shower.
Coffee.
A good novel.
Popcorn and an old movie on DVD.
The smell of fresh-cut grass.
Watching the sunrise.
Walking on the beach.
A gentle morning run.
Yoga or stretching or meditation.
Snuggling in bed with your partner.
Watching the sunset.
A good laugh of something not that funny.
Hit the karaoke house, sing like u having ur own concert *on tour* :)
Dancing like you’re crazy.
Telling jokes till your sides ache.
A long conversation with a good friend.
Root beer float.
Kissing in the rain.
Being lazy on a Sunday.
Waking to a clean house.
An uncluttered room.
Banana split *a BIG yes* :)
Pillow fights.
Fries and a chocolate milkshake.
Singing in the shower, loudly.
Dancing in the rain and stomping in puddles.
The smell of laundry, fresh out of the w.machine
Fresh-baked chocolate chip cookies.
Helping someone in need.
Making someone smile.
Wear ur BF big shirt with no bra but panty, tidy up ur crib n take first shower of d day in d evening. :")
Fresh flowers.
Laying back and watching the stars.
Making a sandcastle.
Floating in the water.
Taking an afternoon nap.
Wearing a very soft cotton dress
Talk n smile to urself in d mirror
Laying back and looking up at clouds.
Watching the ocean.
Getting a massage.
Reese’s peanut butter cups.
Cuddling your pet
Playing a old up-beat song on repeat.
Slow dancing w/out music anywhere
Acting crazy in public.
Smile to a stranger.
Trusting someone
Taking a hot bath.
Blowing bubbles.
A gentle breeze.
The feeling after a good workout.
Checking something off your to-do list.
Snuggling together under the covers on a stormy day.
climbing into a freshly made bed.
listening to rain on the roof
Playing a good game of basketball.
The smell of a new notebook.
Writing on good paper with a good pen.
Drinking espresso at a coffee shop, look at those people n do nothing.
Fresh popped popcorn.
The smell after you open a window when the rain stops.
Swinging on a swing.
Someone tell you that love’s you
Watching animals in nature.
Having a slow motion action fight with a friend.
Big hugs
A very slow and sensual night with your partner.
Staying up all night talking.
The feather-weight-like feeling I get from a saloon's visit.
Swimming at night.
Getting all As on my report card and knowing I deserve it.

updates

2009-02-22T12:15:00.007+08:00

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i had my spa yesterday wif d gals.
i let go my epi baby a/muniah. d craziest thng to do while i miss afi n home sgt2. d feelingS u felt wen u nid to let go thng o people o pet while hati sgt2 syg. WORST. BAD one.hurm~ but mama n afi said, nid to do this. life is a choice. n i nid to choose wut i nid most. ive done it n i gess hw hard the choices are o hw bad d feelings we get later on, we wil face it no mater wut n survive it. i did. *pat myslf* ~
i changed the wall at my room. *stil under construction*
my white SE rosak. dem gile. ehe. nak buy nokia E71!! :")
anis n razan n sarah is d bestest company now. i LOVE them.
i got my new FACEBOOK. addme pwincess.sha@gmail.com :)
tomorrow - monday, i wil start new dept *radiology*. there wil b no ONCALL fo stret 3 wiks. only keje 8am-4pm. *DULL nye* sigh~
oh yes. my faveret kids *my patient* raihan aimar, 8 years old and wahid syam syam, 7 years old. past away aedi. ta sempat na give them candies n chocolates i bought from malaysia. hurm~ go to their bed n i saw org laen, i asked d nurse mana raihan n wahid, they said, past away. *heart struck* at least one of d kid, GIO stil der. hurm hurm~
intan's momma past away due to cancer. im sury babe. i cry myself out at faezah n sarah. hurm. if i were her, i dunoe wut to tink, do o say. series. she is one strong gal, i noe. i love u, intan.
afi love his surprises. damn swit. ehe. i love it!
felt so laziii na blogging. entahlah. i dunoe. ta excited at all.

click me fo the pictures :)

LOVE, shahnaz md nor

hey WORLD!

2009-02-03T03:06:00.006+08:00

It's a beautiful day
Now I'll be ok now that you're not away
Yesterday was a terrible day
But now that you're here I'm ok
Cause you don't know how much I, I need you
Please don't go
You're so wonderful
This I swear, this I know

You, oh you, every single thing you do
I'm so proud of you
What you do
When you do the things you do
They're so you

So thanks for your help
You shine so bright
You are the star that's in my sky
And I am yours and you are mine

I'm so proud of you
That's so you

briefing :)

2009-01-25T12:19:00.008+08:00

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its my 8th out of 9th week in d pediatric department.
da na exam da next week! heeE~
fo now, im d chief.
so GILA KUASA. huhu.
sume kena dgr cakap saya.
sume kena setuju jadwal oncall gile2 saya.
since this week i kena jaga 24/7 a week and free only 21 jam in this week.
i make myself takde oncall at all next week.
CHIEF IMMUNITY. heeE~
*i loike* :P~
since pediatrics is d most hectiest department among all, in my 4th year,
lemme tel u.
im enjoying each n evry second of it dem much.
bes gile maen all d babies.
i got munkey, meong, sunflower n pelangi.
*wil upload their pics later*
this four babies is my feveret. ehe.
thanks to a bunch of bestie who make it worth n rocking~
ehe. especially SARAH and FAEZAH.
my mates, ERIKA - i love u n im sury to noe dat u nid to go oustation fo 4 times.
hell them fo u k babe.
but u do just fine aite. mcm residen.
just like our faveret says "MAJU PANTANG MUNDUR" !! ehe.

i felt a bit hurm d moment i noe kena jadi chief,
cuz all of d chiefs bfo mcm exhausted gile je muke.
but im ready fo wutever that is coming :)
and dats wut make afi proud of me!
hE~ i love u syg! u noe iT! mmm~ ehe.
thank u JPA fo extra pocket manee.
n yeah~ ive bought myslf nu phone.
nokia 9300.
my own manee btw, JPA belum bankin a cent ok.
mama n kalong, pls dun get this wrong :)
i am SUPER hemat here. ehe.

i wana dye my hair pink fo god sake! :)
but stil i dun ev time fo dat.
dee, wen wil we hit d saloon n karaoke? he~

and yes, tumuruw wil b a day semua org call me chief.
yeah yeah :)
and im luking fowerd kena mara this n that s a chief n again.
yeah yeah :)
and i cnt wait kena lari sana sini kejar doctors n kena mara lagi n again.
yeah yeah :)

i jus LOVE my life, being me is so 1000 pelangie. :)
im enjoying it n owes cherish al d people, d moments n d environments too.
gvme mo mo n mo!
i cnt wait to noe wut next~
mm~
hehe..

shahnaz. maju pantang munduR!! :)

ps: afi syg, i LOVE gile2 d songs u gave to me.
1. neyo-miss independent
2. the rocket summer - that's so you
3. jonas brother - lovebug

u make me wana b myslf mo n mo n im enjoying being me wen im wif u.
syg, tq fo giving me faith so dip noone cn gv excpt d families n besties. :)
and syg, fo d love n patient u put thru all this.
thank u so much sygku.
and OMG. 13th may ni qta da a year syg.
if ade baby, da na jalan. he~

sygku afi, pls noe dat,
i love u fo d sun shine so bright n d stars sparkling wen sky turns dark.
i love u no mater wut. :)
be wif me. love me. miss me.
*CHUPS*

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tagged by tiera yg curly hair. hE~

2008-12-27T09:48:00.010+08:00

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1. Cita-cita kamu?
to be sumone who appreciate every single thingS in her life n cherish it no matter wut.

2. Mana lebih penting, Boyfriend atau Kawan?
apparently, my syg is in d "fren" circle.
cuz babes, my boyfriend afi is my bestfren tho.
conclusion, friends :)

3. Berapa kali pernah terfikir untuk membunuh diri?
NONE.
cuz wn im in my baddest day, i wil
joget to d loudest music til i cant take it no mo.
or simply,
hug n kiss all of my frens :)
* i do dat alot*

4. Yakin dengan diri kamu?
confidante.
oh hundred percent ALWAYS. yes!!
name d moment i x confident wif myself.
NONE! :D

5. Berapa ramai anak yang diidam2kan?
hurm~
rahsia.
ehe :")

6. Percaya pelangi akan sentiasa muncul selepas hujan?
dan pelangi itu afi saya.
pelangi semacam afi ta pernah fail muncul after those bleaky-sky-rainy-days.
he got 1000 warna pelangie indah :)
*HUG my afi n tamo lepas2*
he is,
my pelangi, my miracle, my special one.
i LOVE u fo being one pelangi yg sgt mmmmm~
he~

7. Target untuk tahun ini?
end n ace my 4th year medical studies wif flying colourS~
n by august da enter my 5th (final year).
to focus on my afi mo n mo each day. *i love u. i love u :)*
to appreciate indonesia mo.
to kip in touch n hug n kis my frens mo.
to give n spread d love wider n wiser :)

8. Percaya pada cinta?
tanyakan pada me afi gufy.
am i? :)

9. Siri TV kegemaran?
GG. house. antm. oprah.

10. Perkara yang paling ditakuti?
lost my family. afi. besties.
they are evrythng to me.

11. Perangai buruk yang sukar dikikis?
cant say NO to things people ask me to do
EVEN i didnt feel like full hearted on doing one -
syg afi mara betul im like dis. ehe.
syg, bebe try. gv me mo timE ok syg?

12. Sepatah dua kata untuk orang yang membenci kamu?
hugme.
be wif me fo awhile.
n u wil love me :)
trustme.

13. Hargai setiap persahabatan?
til d day cats can fly and d sky turns pink.

14. Maksud 'flying' untuk kamu?
fo my afi syg - slapbutt!!
mmm~
ehe.
sayang, carefull syg~~ heeEE~
i love u. love u so much. sgt bnyk. sgt syg.
sgt na hug u from ur back n gigit2 u
patu u majuk
patu u gigit bebe balik
patu bebe majuk
patu siap u sayang~~
i slapbutt u~ ehe.
syg syg. play wif me!
im dull without u roun~

15. Perkara yang paling diidam2kan?
to ev those masculine arms embrace me wif love. mmm~ ehe.
to ev those sexy eyes staring at me.
to ev those bvulgari smells linger me roun.
A F I :)
my jejaka idaman hati. mmm~ ehe.
sayang sayang, bebe love u!!

17.5 tentang family kamu..
blue sky. green grass. red heart. bumble bee. fluffy huggy huney bear.

18. Perkara yang membuatkan diri kamu gembira?
wen AFI said
" bebe ta tua syg. i da lama tua. :)
bebe tetap cantik di mata i.
i love u no matter wut" on my birthday.
wen AFI said he love me not only fo wut i am but fo wut he is wen he wif me.
wen he said, he love not onli fo wut i ev made of myslf, but fo wut im making him.
wen he said, he love me fo d part of him dat i brought out.
n dat he wil owes b wif me love me miss me kiss me hug me no matter wut.
bebe buny love her AFI gufy bnyk sgt byk~~ :)

19. Siapa kamu 10 tahun akan datang?
wait n see.
its so fab-bee-less babes.
hE~

20. percaya..
love can change almost evrythng.
believe in it n live wit it.
cuz love,
is a miracle.
n i blive in miracle :)

ps : im off fo a wik. outstation call. FO A WEEK. oh tuhan~~
and my paed's alumni said dat im in d most busiest hospital afta all.
its lucky fo me if i can sleep mo than 3 hours per day. oh oh oh.
that wil b so lotsa hussle n hard werk than yaR?
im ready fo wut ever come fronting me :)
to my afi syg,
eventho ta date dkt park n webby fo a wik,
we stil got technology called handphone wif us kan syg :)
that is wen those thngs come in handy.
please noe dat :
i will, im sure, im gonna miss u SO much.
i LOVE u, no matter wut :)
chupps chupps chupps~~ *kiss u smpi u cumut momot* mmmm~
ehe :)
i love u~

.....

she's 22 n she love it! :)

2008-12-21T02:23:00.013+08:00

shahnaz's life :)

2008-12-21T00:32:00.011+08:00

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At PICU *perinatology intensive care unit*
tiring cuz follow up patient most of them evry 15 minutes.
tito2 study2 atas bed patient yang kosong while
tunggu na follow up patient lg .
*kaki n badan sgt sakit :( *
and in PICU oni ade 6 beds.
i tuk one fo myself dat nite.
to my surprise,
d doctors n d nurse ta mara,
instead ketawa *fo wut reason im not sure*
when i amek my stuff n lepak otb.
n d nurse offer ganti cadar baru fo my comfyness.
oh oh~ ^_^

Infus set n d ringer lactate (RL).
this thing really REALLY really make me counting.
setiap hari. yes. evryday~
"make sure drop RL per minute ni tepat ok?" -> d doctors.
n i hate it.
sumone please invent it digitallylah.
so lebih accurate n mk my life mo easier?
he~
:P

patient's status.
evryday kena ikut doctors visitor all d patients.
then ask this n that n do some physical examinations.
then write down sume2 dkt status patient.
patu lukis2 graf mcm bdak sekolah :)
using magic pen biru kuning merah.
which i loike it pretty muc. :)
momot tangan evryday lukis2 cantue.
he~
note: minum susu evry morning
fo the sake of d good health. :)

that night, ward peno with patients.
bilek oncall fo clinical doctors peno too.
while me keje n oncall da >60jam nonstop.
sgt tiring. hectic.stressful
*cewah. ehe*
so ade satu patient's room intermediate kosong.
ade craddle. i stuff my things,
alas wif my pashmina, n study n sms my afi syg til tetito.
ehe. nasib baek craddle tu ta patah.
im heavy tho :P
kiyotlah tito dlm craddle.
serasa baby semula :)
ehe

seriesly.
sgt2 berguna crocs buruk ni :)
*syg~ da buruk da. tp if bebe cuci kan, da putih balek da if-A n wo-E tu~ :)*
bole redah hujan begitu saja.
n pijak air hujan dgn perasaan no wurries.
ehe.
n fyi,
makassar tade crocs boutique YET.
so nurses n local frens here sgt suke mine n faezah's.
which they oni saw sum of d pakar bedah pakai.
n yeah i loike them two tree fo fai :)

inmature baby dalam incubator.
im feeding him susu thru NG tube.
with certain interval times.
sgt FRAGILE n eeeeeee~
rasa akan patah je tulang2 tu wen pegang d babies. :|

to show u d poster anesthesiology yg weird
n til tuday
me myself didnt really stand der,
take a minute to baca betul2 wut the poster is all about.
mcm squid kan?
ehe.

EID ADHA :)
im wearing purple kebaya but
tamo pakai d sarung instead my black pants
as i will hurt my legs na kena jalan wif small steps cepat2.

i named the giraffe rocky even fo me she's a gal.
pity her. ehe.
cuz d boys wont stop crying if i called d giraffe lilylah.
*benci aku* :(
rocky pun maen petik je nama tu out of nowhere.
so rocky she is. hE~
and yes. see.
my hand bigger, while hers smoother.
so jelly fishy.

my everyday-wherever-i-go-i-bring-this-bag.
sbb it consists temperature, sphygmomamometer, sthethoscope,
keys, wallet, perfume, pen, magic pens, liquid, spatel, penlight,
meter tape, ruler, tissue, books, notepad, lipbalm.
n i put the red smiley flower to attract the kids
from nangis2 evrytm saw me in white coat.
silly kidS.
gigit antie. nangis je~
ehe.

gufy

2008-12-10T23:11:00.002+08:00

.....

im that important?
oh.
thank u.

ps: talk is cheap.

buny

.....

Aidiladha + hospital = ??

2008-12-07T22:40:00.008+08:00

.....

esok my first day untuk paediatric department.
n kena oncall 24jam for almost 6days.
silmutaneously. :|~

im teary.

i miss home.
i miss family.
i miss people.
i miss d laugh.
i miss d feelings no need to tink of anythng.
taya pk na exams. taya rasa takut na exams.
taya cry cuz rindu orang. taya cry cuz na exams.
i need people.

Wish I could lie in the sun
The same things as anyone
Wish I could lie down there
With my feet, high in the air

Same things as anyone
Same things as anyone

There's always more worse off than me
Suppose I'm lucky I can even see

Same things as anyone
Same things as anyone

hurm~
ps: im tired. seriesly.

and me, raya di hospital.
hope tomorow wil b just fine fo me.
and yes, selamat hari raya aidiladha.

.....

ALFATIHAH to my azrina.

2008-12-02T02:04:00.020+08:00

.....

NUR AZRINA ISHAK.
25081986 - 18112008

There are no good-byes, where ever u are, you’ll always be in my heart.

babe.
y u didnt tel me dat u ev canceR?
u sakit u nvr share wif me?
u even put me as ur feat fren dkt FS syg.
sampai ati u rina.

babe oh babe.
i cnt stop crying now.
i cnt.
i MISS u!
i feel like so dem MISS u. :"(

im SO SORRY fo im not being there.
hold ur hand. hug u.
n b with u thru ur hardest time syg..
god. i MISS u la. :'(

azrina babe,
i tau dat day ive told u masa puasa yg i balek tu,
i ckp i try my best go singapore visit u kan?
but i didnt make it s d hols too short.
n raya n puasa.
if onli i noe syg.
i fly to singapore fo u ASAP. seriesly.
im sury syg dat i didnt make it.
to enjoy singapore wif u.
shop wif u. hold hands. lauf. gossipping bout gfs n bfs.
n to go to ur house yg i sgt suke.
AMPUN i didnt make it.
i've explain to u why kan syg.
hope u ok wif it.

babe.
did u noe dat i wif afi now?
we really love each otha.
like u said bfo, follow my heart n love d one i love
wif no fear lusing him later kan?
syg, i did it!
u must b smiling wide now n proud of me aite? :")
sbb u tau i sgt syg afi.
n u suke die wif me aite.
thank u syg!!!
u d bestest GALFREN eveR!!!!

babe,
sury if now u baru tahu all dat.
cuz
i wanna kip it s a surprise fo u.
spill it all to u time i mit u.
so u lumpat2 n hugme :")
BUT-
since i ta dpt go singapore.
i post a folder n blogs bout us fo u to SCREAM loud at.
but u didnt do it.
cuz u sakit n i didnt noticed.
but now u noe bout it.
n i hope u happy for me. wif me. :"(
babe. i wan u.

babe.
i MISS u.
i comment u dkt fs u.
saying i miss u.
but bawah comment2 i
sume kawan2 u da sedih2 n alfatihah at u.
i ta perasan syg.
cuz time tu i didnt bother to read all of it cuz im rushing.
i just wana drop "i miss u" je dkt u.
til a fren of u.
saiful - he msg me told me bout u.
he made me speechless.
u noe wut babe.
i felt SO lost.
cuz u didnt gv me a proper gudbye.
how dare u syg.
but i stil LOVE u.
n u wil owes b my kesayangan til bila2.
i noe u noe dat n dats y u dare ta bgtau i.
hurm~ :"(

azrina babe.
i MISS u.
u cnt imagine hw muc i MISS u now.
u d first gf of mine yg b an angel.
i noe u angel plg cantik no one can beat ur hotness :")
not even me babe.
not even anyone.
hurm.
i miss u! :"(

babe.
another 6 hours i ade exam psychiatrct.
n i stil kept crying cuz im so sad.
i noe u wil ask me not to.
and say all those nice words
but hey, i am really dem sad.
hugme!
azrina, im gonna miss u. badly. seriesly.
tunite, i wil cry myslf to sleep fo d sake of our frenship.
its too hard to let u golah babe..
trustme. dem hard syg.
u cnt imagine, n i wunt let u feel wut i felt now.
so baD syg :"(
but u wunt. cuz u aedi up der happily.
those blue sky n bright stars.
i noe u between it.
hows d view from up der?
hurm.

nur azrina ishak.
i LOVE u wif all my heart.
n i promise u.
i wunt forget u.
fo al d loves n gud tots u gave me,
i wil make sure it embrace me wenever i nid u n miss u. :"(
semoga roh NUR AZRINA ISHAK, dicucuri rahmat.
A M I N!
I LOVE U babe. :"(

babe,
Dont want u to leave, but we both know sometimes its better to go.
Somehow I know we'll meet again.
Not quite sure where and I dont know just when.
Youre in my heart, so until then...
wanna smile, wanna cry, saying good-bye. :")

babe, this song is our song now :")
enjoy.

spice girl-goodbye

No no no no
No no no no

Listen little child
There will come a day
When you will be able, able to say
Never mind the pain, all the aggravation
You know there's a better way
For you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm
Fly like an angel heaven sent to me

Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone but I can still feel you here)

It's not the end
(You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never change it, no no
No no no no

Just a little girl, big imagination
Never letting no one take it away
Went into the world, what a revelation
She found there's a better way for you and me to be

Look for the rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby

Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone but I can still feel you here)

It's not the end
(You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never change it, no no
No no no no (You know it's time to say goodbye)
No no no no

The times when we would play about
The way we used to scream and shout
We never dreamed you'd go your own sweet way

Look for the rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby

Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone but I can still feel you here)

It's not the end
(You gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never never ever change it

No no no no
(You know it's time to say goodbye)
No no no no
(And don't forget you can rely)
No no no no
(You know it's time to say goodbye and don't forget on me you can rely)
No no no no
(I will help, help you on your way)
No no no no
(I will be with you every day)
No no no no...

.....

yummy camwhoring :)

2008-11-30T22:47:00.015+08:00

.....

my first time using fotoshup cuz
i felt soooo lazy na studi.
*even less than a wik shahnaz nak exam :P*
so i apply my camwhoring's photo pagi td di fotoshup.
ps : hanya apply frame. :)
me likey yummy yumm~

.....

me loves :)

2008-11-30T09:47:00.013+08:00

....

nashimah, my gf.
die upload pic nie afta she noticed dat my afi is my syg.
cuz afi is once, her classmate too masa primary dlu :)
ehe.

to my surprise~
my afi kiyot masa kecik dlu while i cumutnyeeeee~
tp u tetap syg i kan yang.
siap u i gigit2 u tau.
sbb rinduuuu~ he~ :)

"syg syg. did u notice dat kite banyak kali in d same class time primary?"
"why i ta noticed u ye?"
owes ask syg Q begitu.
hee~

time primary dlu.
im in clas 1nilam. 2-6 delima.
delima is d first class. nilam is d second.
i stil remmbr, time im in 6 delima,
my faveret closefren adalah two crazee gud heart people -
khairul and izyan.
we love to lauF!!
cuz of stupid lil silly things~
we lauf like so freaking lauf *trust me*
ehe.
i ingat lg khairul smpi jatuh kerusi sbb ketawa gile2.
n we owes ketawa til crying *specially izyan*
ketawa til otot muke sgt2 lenguh.
n perut sgt tegang~
ehe.

we owes buy susu n minum dlm kelas..
buat math sama2 n maen pemadam.
dtg early in d morn to tiru mathematics~
ehe.

then i remmbr hw triple of us owes
compete each otha time math n sempoa clas.
*tgk sape siap dlu. mestilah i kan. :P ehe*
we ejek all d teachers we hate
*hate time tu je, s i love my teachers*

haihs~ i mis primary.
i love it sooo muc :)

nw dat khairul in his way to b a dentist.
stylo gudlooking dentist. :)
*i love the shirts of urs, u noe dat!!*

n izyan got her own business,
*i love u so muc yan*
all d best deaR~~

while im stil here,
pursuing my studies as a medical doctors.

oh, i miss both of u.
pls dun forget me!
i noe both of u wunt kan~ :)

and babes~
few months back time i balek mlaysia,
n three of us hangout tu sgt bes!
mcm old day kan.
we need to do dat alot! i mean wif so dem alot!
cuz i felt so younG~ ehe.

we go eat sushi
*cuz i love it n kerol na makan dkt kedai thai n we argued! s usual i won! :P*
then afta mam, we go pavy just to get choco drinks dkt starbucks.
n burak2 n camwhoring *kerol d camwhore not me n yan* ehe
til kena halau sbb starbucks da na tutup.
ehe.
i felt like im in primary back!
i LOVE both of u~
among d kesayangans who close to me heart. :)

ps: i wud like to THANKS
my SRI MANJA n SRI KANCIL kindie.
SKTS's + Bahagia n Martin tuition center.
CBN's + MRSM.
KMNS teachers..
without all of ur ilmu n efforts,
i wunt be where i am tuday.
i wunt see this much.
i wunt stand this high.
i wunt b wut i am tuday.
i noe i cnt do much to pay all of u
but trust me,
neither do u not in my daily prayers.
may ALLAH bless all of u.
i will make all of u proud of me.
shahnaz says thank u.
n she LOVE n APPRECIATE all of u,
the greatest teachers in the WORLD! :)

.....

i dream. i believe. i cherish :)

2008-11-28T18:40:00.009+08:00

.....

I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge.
myth is more potent than history.
dreams are more powerful than facts.
hope always triumphs over experience.
laughter is the cure for grief.
love is stronger than death.

To accomplish great things,
we must not only act, but also dream.
not only plan, but also believe.

Cuz, there wil b nothing happens unless we dream n also believe of it first :)
and there are no person has the right to rain on your dreams.

You gotta dance like nobody's watching,
dream like you will live forever,
live like you're going to die tomorrow and
love like it's never going to hurt :)

I view my life in a way,
the greatest thing about tomorrow is,
I will be better than I am today.
And that's how I look at my life.
I will be better as a medical student,
I will be better as a person,
I will be better as a daughter,
I will be a better afi's girl,
I will be better as a friend.

That's the beauty of tomorrow, i see.
There is no such thing as a setback.
The lessons I learn today I will apply tomorrow, and I will be better.
and i believe it owes dat way.

through my clinical days, i believe,
the power of a touch, a smile,
a kind word, a listening ear,
an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring,
all of which have the potential to turn a life around.
be kind to them cuz fo me, evryone is fighting a hard battle.

i am too believe that,
Learn to enjoy every minute of our life.
BE happy now.
Dun wait fo sumthng outside of ourself to make us happy in d future.
Think how really precious is the time we have to spend.
whether it's at work or with friends n families.
Every minutes shud b enjoyed n savored.

P/S: Try a little harder to b a little better :)

.....

psychiatric department :)

2008-11-28T01:14:00.014+08:00

.....

im in my second department apparently fo me clinical.
its psychiatric aka jiwa
that means ade 5 dept left fo my 4th year.
paediatric, interna, kulkel, and radiology :)
*omfg, time flew by so fast i ta felt like oni 5 left! ehe *
cuz my jiwa dept end next week.
whch mean i exam next week :)~ hee huu~
cnt wait cnt wait.

then i wil enter paed fo 10 wik!
*paed and interna is d killer dept-they said.
so lets see hw it is*
i wanted to get sarah n faezah a small beanie toy to sangkut at their sthetho.
so all d babies wunt cry wen they saw us :)
i get mine aedi. its a giraffe! ehe. kiyoTlah~

oh btw, fo clinical here, we are allowed to susun
the timetable clinical on our own.
na masuk dept mana dlu o
bile na cuti suke atie.
so if u na extend ur clinical
mo den two years oso can.

so i decided to not to cutie til wen i really need it.
habis je neuro i terus entered psychiatrc. then abes from psychtrc dept,
me n sarah trus na masuk paed.
afta paed maybe na break a week :)

fo now.
psychiatric dept, im the CHIEF :)
hee huu~ *GILA KUASA*
I loike it wen they layan my kegilaan kuasa. :)
"they" as in d doctors, d kerjamates
ehe.

i love d doctors la~~
they sgt fun~ and cool too!
wen i lauf wif no reason o do things dgn cerdas n pantas *sarah.. semangat!!* ehe x)
they wil say im maniac n na prescribed me ubat2 jiwa.
owes na buli us wif psiko2 us dat dey wil gv us lo marks fo our daily log books,
give us soalan quiz susah2 n lauf n satisfy wen we cnt answer it :D~
huhu. make me mo maniaC!
n d doctors cool ok!!!!
they can telepathy n hipno.
n wen we talkd to them bout our prob, we can release d probs like really released!
n i adored dem fo they cn b d BESTEST listener of all. :)~
*tepikat abit da. he~
tp saya tetap chentakan me heartbeat afi, d yumiest afta all~
syg, u r so yummy yumm. na mamam syg ari2 bole ta tu?
bebe janji b takan pena jemu jemu. selamanya~ :)

and.
now i undrstnd rely y d doctor said,
psychiatrc is a guy wif an easy way untuk flirt n capable to ev mo den one wifE .
oh, so truE~

In my MMPI - minnesota multiphasic personality inventory test
my maniac high~ *no surprise :)*
btw, The Minnesota Multiphasic Personality Inventory (MMPI)
is one of the most frequently used personality tests in mental health.
The test is used by trained professionals to assist in identifying
personality structure and psycopathology :)
shud try people :)

PS: i LOVE psychiatrc dept
even both mental n physical
penat cuz we need to layan
all d weng weng people
BUT
i wun wana b a psychiatric.
FULLSTOP :)

.....

i wan both of them. pleasE? :)

2008-11-27T23:41:00.003+08:00

shahnaz love it the very much lah~:)

anak cine bukit yg matenye sipit. :)

2008-11-22T01:16:00.006+08:00

.....

u la d oni one
anak cine bukit mata sipit yg i syg :)
u jgn naqal2 tau.
sbb i syg u.
sbb u syg i two tree fo fai.
hE~ :)
happyla carut dgn u td.
sbb u GILE sgt sgt lah~
tp i ta gile even i nw dlm psychiatric dept tau.
ehe.

P/S : mesti u touch gile kan?
i sweet sgt kan?
ehe. u mesti ckp "ala~ bes nyee.syg u."
patu i ckp "ala~ bes gilekan"
patu u ketawa mata sipit mcm anak bukit.
patu i pun ketawa jgak.
patu kite ckp "gile la u ni"
patu ketawa lagi.
ehe.
syg u :)

.....

shahnaz saket :|~

2008-11-19T23:35:00.008+08:00

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BIG sigh~
im sick!
got viral infection.
its
P I T I R I A S I S R O S E A
:|~

bad bad bad me.
d specialist told me d reason i cn get such inf
cuz ta cukup rehat n bekeje manyak sgt~
whch make my imun system low~
hurm hurm hurm~
*free je kena mara* :P
plus her jelingan tajam dan gelengan kepala
*yes tQ - fo making me felt SO hurm~*
mcm a sign "apela budak satu ni"
=|~~~

she said dat as a future doctor,
this kinda inf ta patut dapat pn.
hurm~~~
she even sempat quiz me pasal penyakit itu.
my heart go dag dig dug mcm tgh EXAM!
she bikin me lupe dat i saket.
simply cuz
my head kept thinkinG jawapan ie.
dan wen i jawab sala,
oh yeah~ mmg lagi bes die sound saya :)
*senyum je manis2 if ta dpt jwb kan shahnaz?*
tp naseb baek ta ask me dosage obat fo such disease~
fuh~~~~ there!
:D

ala~
na syg~
na hugla canie..
syg syg.
doctor make me sad syg. :|~
*hugme hugme hugme kuat2 jgn lepas2 k syg*
janji bebe hug b kuat2 k.
rindu u
nak u
sgt2

since shahnaz jarang sgt2 na saket2 ni,
things begini bikin shahnaz sgt sadlah~
asek cry n stress out je think of this one thinG!
make me miss home n fam
make me wan afi mo n mo n mo.
pray sama2 wif me people.
shahnaz cpt sembuh.
ok?
ok.
hurm~

*shahnaz stil in d sad mode pasal benda ni*
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